Her || Bts 8th Member

HoMin| Starry Nights

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It's early two in the morning, everyone was asleep in their rooms after their not hectic day. Light snores can be heard around the house or it's just for Soomin's clear hearing. The clouds move in the dark sky and few stars only give Soomin her light that early morning.

She couldn't get herself to sleep that day, she sat beside her tent set up earlier by Jungkook and Yoongi letting her start gaze. Bottle of wine beside her, the girl just looks up at the stars watching them shines even its bit blur for her. Her thoughts kept her awake again just like they did in the past days. The girl only gets four hours of sleep and stay awake in the early morning.

Good thing, she's used by those hours of sleep. Soomin can even move energetically even from half hours of sleep. The crickets does their sounds that keep Soomin company, that sounds makes her relax. Her body, but her thoughts never.

Days pass she keep thinking if she wanted this kind of life. If she was happy with this or even satisfied with it. She bet the boys knew what's going on in her head again, even she keep quiet the boys especially yoongi knew what's going on. And she's grateful for it, they give her space until she wants to speak it out.

The careless Soomin slowly fades now, everything she used to do when she's a kid and free, she can't do it anymore. She can't be selfish and careless now, does she? Everything thing will turn bad if she made any big mistake especially she's a female. Everyone expects her to be one, to be a firm and well-mannered person.

Soomin drunk ones her half glass wine and started to pour again for herself. She's only in her 20s she can do more things in the future.

"What do you want?" Soomin said as she takes a sip of her wine, the man flinched slightly at her. Soomin feels him as if she has eyes behind her head.

"You can't sleep?" The man sits beside her and pulling the half bottle away from the younger. Soomin frown reaching for it. Hoseok gives her a look at making the younger stop with a pout and gives her glass to Hoseok. The older smile at himself proudly for he made the hardheaded girl stopped drinking.

"Say what's on your mind baby angel? Do I have to make you fall asleep?" Hoseok smile before gently caressing her head and planting a kiss on her temple. Soomin shook her head and lean closer to Hoseok. She didn't want to cry in front of him, so she didn't say anything.

The nights are starting to pass by just hours and the sun will appear again. They stayed like that for a while, Hoseok holding Soomin in his arms as the younger let him, to hold her tightly. At least Hoseok warmth gives her comfort and it's more than enough for Soomin just the silence with them.

"What do you think, you were now if you're not an idol?" Soomin asked the man who responds with hum in question. Confused by her suddenly question, and Hoseok knew what's this about.

"Is that what's in your mind lately?" Soomin didn't answer though leaving Hoseok just looked worried at their sister. Times like this come, it's not the first time Soomin got afraid like this. The boys knew that she's not thinking about what will happen if she's not an idol but what will happen in the future.

The young girl got away from her parents since they come back here to Seoul, Soomin's parents got more busy and distant with their daughter. The poor little girl just has her nanny or her aunt and uncle to take care of her, her mother's side grandma was too far away from their family, her father's side grandparents already passed away.

The careless, stubborn black sheep of the family-like she called herself got an idea and auditioned in the company after she got scouted by the talent agents and got in. Soomin told them she passed and got accepted to see their reactions. But Soomin didn't get the reaction she wanted, her parents said they're proud of her but Soomin didn't want that. She wanted them to stop her.

So Soomin continued the whole path and reached it here with them, the boys.

"Do you regret being with us Soomin?" She only shook her head, snuggles close to Hoseok putting her face to his shoulder. She didn't want him to see her crying.

"I'll be always here, with Yoongi hyung and the rest. Don't be afraid of the future, everything is fine. I thought you want to be a psychologist, why you're letting your thoughts sink in your mind?" Hoseok tried to lift the mood and gladly to did even a bit. A small sniff, he heard them and those cold wets in his shoulder, he felt it.

"You know, I watched some psychiatrists said that some of our thoughts aren't true and just making us feel it was. Do you think your thoughts are true, sunshine? Because if it's true then don't let it got into you, you have us with you always. We're always ready to listen to you always, even for your crazy ideas, angel." Hoseok chuckled softly, caressing her hair. Soomin tried to stop herself to cry, pulling away from Hoseok who let her.

The older only smile at their cute little sister, the girl only cried in front of them a few times. Can be counted in hands for past years. Hoseok can still remember her first look at how the boys thought she's a boy with long hair with a feminine look because of how she acts and dress. She still dresses up like that though but her feature becomes more feminine and soft.

"Are you okay now?" Hoseok asked the girl who nodded as she wipes the trace of her dried tears out of her face.

"Your eyes are so red Soomin, let's go sleep now sunshine?" Hoseok offered as he stands up and pulled up Soomin in his arms, he assists her to his room and letting Soomin get in first. He walked to the kitchen and get a glass of water before going back.

Hoseok let Soomin drink first before getting in with Soomin, and embraced the small lady beside him.

"If you keep your thoughts again with yourself, I'll make you cry more." Hoseok threatened with a pout on his face, Soomin only chuckled and pat his head.

"Yes, Hoseokie, my hope." Soon Soomin fell asleep as Hoseok embraced her bit only closed eyes, he didn't want to fall asleep knowing Soomin may cry again and drink those half of the wine.

"I should call someone to remove the wine cellar here." Hoseok thought before he fell asleep with Soomin in his arms.

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Love Hobi too, I don't have chap for Halloween special..sorry guys but! Do read the chap "Jungkookie got scared" yeah.. that has a spooky vibe I guess.

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