"IN WHICH SHE WAS HIS CANDY."
"sorrow turns to joy, but just for him."
dallas winston fan fiction
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storyline by -todorokishoe
mature language and possible triggers
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AS I biked along the sidewalk, i started to think about all the things in my life. especially dallas. i don't know why, but i just care about him too much. even though he can be a complete bitch sometimes, there's just something that won't let me let go. he did so many things that made me feel so sad, but my anger towards him disappears at the end of each day. i haven't spoken to him for about a week.
i got home and parked my in the grass next to our house. i walked in, seeing a couple of the boys here. nothing out of the blue.
"hey, lydia. where were you?" sodapop asked me. "just biking around, got kinda bored though." i responded. all he did was nod, darry already tells me enough of the time to be careful for soc's so i guess soda didn't have the need to. i walked to my room, and sat at my desk. i have homework to finish, mainly math. math is not my favorite subject, i have a B in that class.
"hey princess, can we talk?" i hear a knock on my already opened door, and a deep, and rough voice. of course, it's the one and only dallas winston. i shrugged, "i guess, why not." he shut my door and sat on my bed. i joined him, and sat next to him on the bed.
"look, i'm sorry." he said slowly. "no, i should be the one apologizing." i said curtly, not having any tone in my voice. he looked at me with a confused look, wanting me to explain.
"i shouldn't have fallen for someone like you. it's as simple as that. i know, i can't get over you and you obviously like flirting with other girls, so it just wouldn't work. only fools fall for you, the ones who know that a relationship won't work."
he looked at me with a sad expression on his face, surprisingly. "no, no that's not right. i should be sorry, i really like you lydia, i do. i just, do that because i'm scared to lose a person that i actually like, because i think that you don't actually like me."
what he said shocked me, i never knew dallas did all that just because of doubt. seemed like he was toying with my feelings, for me. another thing that shocked me, was how soft he was being. never would've expected that from dallas.
"i love you, i really do. i want to be with you, but i want you to know how great you are. after what happened about the whole, uh depressive state. you know, loving someone takes another factor of loving yourself too..." he said.
"that's complete bull." i muttered quietly. "hm?" he said, confused. "i said that's complete bullshit." i said, a bit louder. "i've never known how to love myself, i've always despised myself. but dallas, you make me forget to hate myself."
he didn't say a word for a good two minutes. after a while of complete silence, he pulled me into a hug, resting his chin on my head. now this, was comforting.
authors note !! ♡ sorry this chapter is short, they won't be very long. i've been busy lately with homework and a bunch of school things.
