Sex And Love || Gary Rossington (Completed)

9. It Seems Like Forever Ago

Our feelings for eachother clearly are more complicated then they should be. Gary never answered my question, I'd assume it was a yes though. Renee never gave a shit about him, which is why she broke it off the way she did.

"What's wrong Kennedy? Do you need a hug?" Kayden softly asked. I nodded, and wrapped my arms around him. I knew he already had seen the tears in my eyes, but I still needed to restrain from crying.

As usual, I got to sleep late that night. Ever since Bethany died, nothing has been the same. As a distraction, I shifted my eyes along the shining stars outside. At approximately three in the morning, I finally passed out. When I finally had to get up, I was blinded by the bright sun. I was still half asleep when I walked down the stairs, due to lack of eating over the past few days, black dots began to appear in my vision.

Ignoring the sickening feeling in my stomach, I gave into the hunger I was feeling.

"You don't look to good." My mother felt my forehead, instantly she was concerned. I never get sick, so this was a rare occasion.

"I can't be sick ma. The carnival is this weekend." I stared down at my feet, I looked up again when my mother put a hand on my shoulder. "Not like I have anyone to go with."

I had orimgally planned to go with Bethany, that obviously wasn't happening.

Both of my parents were working late, so I was all alone. I was careful with my diet, I didn't eat alot of solid foods.

I became instantly confused when I heard frantic knocking on the door. Out of habit, I grabbed an old baseball bat, it was Kayden's, but it would work if I needed to hit someone in the pressure points.

"Gary what are you doing here? And why are you all freaked out?" I bit my lip, then trying to make my hair look more presentable. "Did you piss off the wrong guy and need an escape?"

"Somethin like that. Please just let me in." Gary stared blankly at me, eventually I gave in.

"Fine. But don't get too close. I've came down with somethin bad."

"I was wonderin' why you wern't at school."

I smiled weakly and clutched my stomach. "You make yourself at home I guess. I'll be right back. Lock the door if it makes you feel better."

I now knew why I felt so sick. I'd never thrown up before cause it was this time of the month, but theres a first time for everything. I tried everything not to look at the blood, but one look was too much. Memories of my miscarriage came crashing into my mind. I stayed in the bathroom to take care of myself, the after math of the anxiety was getting worse. It felt like I was re living it again. Ever since then I'd always been afraid of blood. Rightfully.

Crying, and still feeling the anxiety surging through my veins like an electric shock. Gary was distracted, he was stretched across the  couch, watching some weird show, and eating a half full bag of potato chips.

Before I went into the living room, I called Kayden's friends house, I knew he was on a playdate, but due to my current mental state, I was worried about him.

"Hey." I was slightly calmer now, I was set into reality. Gary, however, could see right through me.

"Why are you cryin?" Gary asked as he stood up and walked towards me.

"It's just some women things. You don't wanna know Gary trust me." I attempted to laugh off my issues, but Gary wasn't buying it.

When I saw his serious facial expression, I asked him to sit back down again.

"What I'm about to tell you could change your opinion on me forever. When I used to date Ryder, I got pregant. I lost the baby. He beat me all the time after that. He still hasn't left me alone. So becuase of that I'm afraid of blood. And today I uh..got my.. you finish the sentence."

"Kennedy." Gary pulled me onto his lap so I was facing him, and wrapped his arms around me. "Why didn't you tell me this before?"

"I'm not open about it. The only person who knew the whole story was Bethany. That's why I rejected your date proposal. I was just so worried of getting attached to someone again.."

"Kennedy I'm never gonna do that to you. What happend wasn't your fault."

"Thanks Gary. You truly are somethin else aren't ya?"

"Is that a compliment?"

"Yes." I giggled slightly, after the short time of comic relief, I became serious again. "Do you think we could maybe start all over? Unless you have someone already.."

"Renee? Nah. She ditched me. You're the lucky winner. I'm all yours."

"How about the carnival this weekend? Just me and you?"

Gary's face lit up and he nodded with excitement. "It's a date."