Truth About Love

chapter 42

I was so close to drifting off into sleep, when Ariana walked into my room and said, " Um Milano I think you should come downstairs and see this." I got off my bed then went downstairs quickly, I was very curious about what was downstairs that I had to see.

We got downstairs then Ariana led me to the kitchen and Aaron was standing there with Vanessa. I couldn't believe my eyes, what was he doing here and what was she doing here? What were they both doing here? " What the fucking hell are you doing here?"

" I needed to see you."

" And I don't want to see you for god sakes, Aaron! Are you fucking retarded or something!"

" Don't talk to my fiancée like that Milano."

" Did you just say, fiancé?"

" Yes Milano, Aaron, and I are getting married and I'm expecting his child."

" Tell me this is a joke, tell me that she isn't carrying your baby."

" It's true Milano,"  I walked up to Vanessa and just started beating the living daylights out of her, I punch her stomach, kicked her leg and just gave her the pain she made me feel, but then Scott pulled me away and I shouted, "no Scott, I'm not finished with her, let me fuck her up and leave a bruise, so those bruises represent the pain she caused me!"

Scott held me tight and I just looked at Vanessa with so much hate and disgust in my eyes, " Aaron you just don't listen now do you," I spat out, got out of Scott's hold and walked out of the kitchen making my way outside, to get some air, but of course Aaron had to follow me, " leave me the fuck alone Aaron!"

" I can't."

" Yes you can, it was easy for you to propose to that pathetic excuse of a sister and fuck her brains out and make her pregnant, so I think leaving me the fuck alone will be a piece of cake!"

" I still love you so much," he said and  I walked up to him." I don't love you ok, I don't fucking love you, I hate you, you betrayed me, you broke my heart, you disgust me, you did the one thing you promised you wouldn't do and that went back to my sister. I hate you Aaron, god, I fucking hate you!" As I was saying this, I was beating his chest with my fists and crying my eyes out.

I looked at him and he was in tears and that made me just hate him even more, " Milano doesn't do this to me please just don't."

" I...fucking... hate your guts, I wish I never took you back after I found out you fucked my sister. I regret that day,  I wouldn't hurt so much. You made me love you so much, you were the only thing on my mind, I put you first, I felt like I just couldn't function without you and my god, I loved you with all my power, passion, will and might, but all you did was use me for your benefits just to satisfy your needs.

I hate the way you made me feel, I hate the way you made me cry like crazy for you, I hate the way my heart broke because you weren't in my life anymore, I fucking hate you Aaron and I want you far from me, just fucking leave now and take your trash with you!"  I walked away and went into the house, ran into Scott, " make sure he is on the next flight to where ever the fuck he wants to and also with that trash he brought here."

When I walked up the stairs I saw Vanessa walking down with bruises and I couldn't help but feel proud. " You can beat me up all you want, but Aaron will never be yours again"

" I know that and to be honest I don't care. Vanessa listen carefully, I want that baby to be a reminder of my baby that died and how it ruined my marriage. I want that ring on your finger to be a reminder of how that ring didn't stop you from taking what you knew wasn't yours.

When you look into his eyes I want you to see me crying my eyes out from the heartbreak and the same eyes that looked at me with love, but that wasn't enough. When you kiss him I want you to know that he used those lips to promise the world, promise me love and happiness, but used it to kiss your lips and lie to me.

When he says he loves you or gives you love to remember how I gave it to him x10 more because I was Mrs. Johnson, but he spat on the word making it worthless and when you see Aaron I want you to see the very same man who caused my heartbreak and pain and made me cry myself to sleep while he was fucking your brains out," I said and she was speechless and tears were running down her face, but I just walked up the stairs and went to my room.

When I walked into my room, Ariana was there and when she saw me, she had her hands out, in open arms and I ran into her arms and cried in her arms. He did it to me again, he made me break down hard and I was finished again. I hated him with all my might and I wished I never loved him this much. " It's okay, let it all out if you have too, I'm here like I have always been," she calmly said.

My body was weak and to be honest, right now I needed Sergio more than ever, I needed him to frustrate me and I needed him to make me smile like hell and forget the bad and the people in the world and was in his bubble.

I need this man that I realized I loved and needed to be with him all the time. I got changed into my pajamas then got into bed and just slept even though I was feeling heartache.

I woke up and it was very dark which could only mean it was very cloudy because it still day. I walked to the balcony doors, opened them, and stood by the railing. I looked at my garden, there was a very strong, but good wind and I loved how dark it was outside. I looked up to the sky and did what I haven't done for so many years, I spoke to god,

So god I know I haven't spoken to you in like forever, but right now I just need to talk to you because you're all I can turn to right now. Why did all of this happen, why did my heart have to break so hard, because of just one person who didn't even create me?

I mean this man I just met and fell in love with and I didn't think he would hurt me so badly, but he did and I feel like I'm paying for it and I don't like it. Please take the pain away, I'm tired of feeling pain, I want to feel happiness and hope. I want to be able to love again and not be afraid to repeat the same heartbreak. Please god.

Amen.

I opened my eyes and I was crying again, I had to keep myself together, I didn't want Sergio to see me like this. I didn't want him thinking that I still loved Aaron and wasn't ready for a new chapter with him, which was true. I was very ready and I'd prove it to him if I had.

I walked into my room and Sergio was standing there and he dropped his bags which was a clear sign for me to come and hug him. I ran to him and he hugged me so tightly and I did too and helplessly cried. "It's okay, I'm here beautiful, I'm here and I'm not going anywhere."

" Promise me that you won't."

" I promise till the day I die," he said. I looked at him and I kissed him hard and he responded back with the same intensity, I missed him so much and I was so happy that he was back for me, back to make me happy. He let go and said " I love you Milano Fernández," I looked at him and paused a little.

He said it first and he did love me, " te amo mi futbolista( I love you, my soccer player)." We stayed in our embrace for a while, he was back home and I was in his arms.