Truth About Love

Chapter 49

2 months later.....

I was lying on the bed waiting for the doctor to come and deliver my baby. I was in so much pain, but it was ok to handle but god she wanted come out and so did I. Ariana and Scott were holding my hand trying to keep me calm and I bless their sweet souls for doing that, but it was pointless because you could swear I was bipolar.

The doctor came in then I shouted, " thank fucking god!" He chuckled then the nurses put me in position to deliver and then the doctor said, " ok Milano I'm going to count to 3 then I want you to push okay," I nodded then got myself ready to push. " Okay, one...Two...three ...push Milano, Milano push!" He shouted and I did what the doctor asked me to do. I pushed my hardest and I almost felt light headed, I clutched on Ariana and Scott's hand hard and pushed even harder.

I pushed harder then the doctor said, " that's it Milano, I can see the head. Push harder!" I pushed for the third time and really hard then... I heard a baby crying and I knew my girl was out. " Congrats Milano, it's a baby boy!"

" But you said it's a girl."

" I know, but sometimes it isn't as clear as day," he said. They wrapped my baby in a blanket and gave him to me. I held him close and kissed his forehead so many times. He was so small and so cute, he had his father's brown eyes and I didn't want to stop looking at him. " So what are you naming him sis?"

" Carlos Sergio Ramos," I know the name was weird, but I decided to give him names of the two men that I truly loved.

I woke up then went to check on Carlos and he was sleeping so peacefully. I went into the bathroom then packed my bags, so I could leave the hospital and take my son home. I walked out the hospital and Scott was waiting for me. " Hey Scott," I said as  I asked him to hold Carlos while I was placing the bags in the car. " How is the new mother? "

" Tired and a little in pain, but I'm very happy that Carlos is here with me."

" Are you still leaving."

" Yes, I'm going to leave tomorrow."

" Let me come with you," he said and we got into the car then drove off.

It was time for Carlos to eat so I started breastfeeding him. " Scott your life is here and I won't take it away from you."

" Will you let me visit."

" Yes of course"

" So, where are you going?"

" An island near Spain."

" Wait your going to mom's island?"

" Yes, that's my new home."

We arrived home then I let Ariana, Evan and Scott take care of Carlos while I started to pack all my clothes. I was so busy packing that I lost track of time and everything, I was so determined to leave and not look back, I was done with America and Spain.

Someone knocked on the door so I shouted " come in!" From my closet, " is Carlos crying?" I asked as I got out my closet holding the last of my clothes in the cupboard, I looked up and saw Vanessa sitting on my bed.

She was different and a very good different. " Milano congrats on your baby"

" Thanks, so what brings you here?"

" I hear you're leaving America for good."

" You heard right."

" I'm sorry for everything."

" I have already forgiven you, so no need for apologies, but right now I don't want to see you because when I look at you I see pain and I don't want pain in my life right now," she got off my bed and walked to my door and said " I still love you."

" I still do too," then she left and I went back to packing. I was almost finished and I was making sure all the things were packed.

We were at the dinner table talking and just enjoying our final times together. Carlos was right next to me on his stroller relaxing while I was rocking the stroller back and forth. " So this is it, this is our last dinner with you."

" That's right Ariana, so can't we like change your mind."

" I wish, but no, it's already done. I'm leaving but will be back, but not very soon."

" We will miss you"

" Ditto my beautiful souls," I said and we carried on enjoying dinner and talking. I was honestly going to miss this, but it was what I exactly need, so I could take care of my baby, watch him grow with out any complications and just have me time when it was needed.

I was lying in bed with sleeping on my chest, it's not that I didn't have a baby crib for me him it's just I didn't want him away from my side. I went through my all the horrible things that happened to me and found myself laughing because i honestly couldn't believe that I went through all of this.

It was like it just got more and more worse as we speak and honestly it was too much and that's why I was running away from this. So I could start my life with my son, I think that's all a human being could ask for.