Alpha Travis

Kabanata 9

My mind was wandering off somewhere far while I am filling my water bottle on one of the campus' water refilling station, I was nearing the galaxy when water from my jug spilled on my hand. The cold water woke me up and brought me back to where I truly am. My mind was everywhere since I woke up this morning, I don't know what's with today's weather pero I am feeling uneasy. 

I locked my water bottle's lid before turning my way to the nearest restroom, as I'll wear my sweater. Kanina pa nasakit ang ulo ko kaya naman I wore my eyeglass para naman maibsan kahit papaano, wala naman akong ginawa kahapon kaya imposible na dahil 'to sa pagod. Hinagilap ko naman ang gamit kong dala pagkalabas ng cubicle, and before I can even step outside the comfort room, a girl on the corner was looking at me intently. 

Nagsalubong ang kilay ko sa itsurang ibinibigay niya saakin, tila ba may galit at inis na nanghahamon ang titig nito. And I am pretty sure that I've seen her somewhere, hindi ko nga lamang ma re-call pero, I am positive that I've bumped in to her already. Hindi ko nalamang ito nilapitan dahil medyo gahol na ako sa oras, I was supposed to be at the library with Red kanina pang eight-thirty kaso ay tamad na tamad talaga ako kumilos kaya naman halos labing limang minuto na akong late.

I quickly rushed my way towards the library where Red and I were, I've noticed that her belongings are in our spot but she's nowhere to be found. I arranged my things beside her at naupo nalamang upang mag intay sakaniya. Minutes have passed pero walang Red na dumating sa gilid ko, my curiosity grew and grew kaya I've decided to roam around the library. 

Halos nangangalahati na ako sa kakahanap sakaniya, pakaunti na nang pakaunti ang studyanteng natatanaw ko dahil bukod sa paluma na ng paluma ang amoy ng mga libro sa gawing ito ay palamig ng palamig na 'rin. I hugged myself when one of the aircon's swing pointed at me, at kahit na may sweater ay tila wala itong pakinabang.

I heard a faint whispers from my right, kaya naman I immediately whipped my head towards that direction. Dahan-dahan akong lumapit sa isang book shelf na tila pulos kulay brown na ang covering ng books, when I passed the C102 hall of the library a ball of hot air hit my face.

"Ouch!" The sudden impact made me curse, not so loud but not too faint either dahil tila nabagabag ko ang kung sino man ang may ari ng boses na tila nadidinig ko.

Being my usual chismosa self, nilakihan ko pa ang aking mga hakbang at lalong binilisan ang paglalakad-takbo papunta sa may gilid. Upang sana ay mahuli o makita ang nagbubulungan o bumubulong when suddenly, someone grabbed my arm harshly.

Before I can even shout from the shock, that someone who grabbed my arm also clamped a hand on my mouth. I struggled in my captivator's hold strongly, kaya naman nang inikot ako nito at hinarap sakaniya ay tila nabuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig nang makita ko ang mukha nito.

It was Travis! 

He's signalling me to keep my cool, "Let's go,"

My muffled screams were the only thing that allows me to answer his quest. When I realized that he's not considering my whims, I've decided to kick his right knee with my black-heeled shoes. 

Even with my tight-fitting school skirt, I have taken my legs wider than I could just to kick him.

Nasaktan naman yata siya dahil sa paglingon niya ay medyo ngumiwi siya saakin, "Get your hands off me! Ano ba?" Asik ko sakaniya habang hinihinaan ang boses at pag aalma sakaniya.

Maya-maya pa ay hinila niya ako sa may bandang vacant na aisle for history related books, hinarap niya ako habang hawak ang kanang kamay ko.

"You're distracting them..." Panimula niya.

"Me? A distraction? Baka hindi ka pa natingin sa salamin."

Hindi niya pinansin ang pamimilosopo ko, "Your friend, Red, and my man, Veltus, is currently patching up their relationship. So, if you're to get in the midst of their talking ay siguradong aalis nanaman si Red."

Bigla naman akong napaisip, tama naman siya. May point siya 'don, baka nga kung sakaling tumuloy ako ay aalis nanaman bigla si Red. Like 'nung nagkita sila sa Cold Frame, she immediately ran off.

I immediately get the picture. 

Bumuntong hininga naman muna ako bago ko siya titigan mismo sa mata, his eyes are what seemed to cage me. His menacing stare, his stoic face, and the list go on, but behind those stares of his, I saw a different light. A different meaning. Tila ayaw pakawalan ng mga mata ko ang titig niya. Funny how at the back of my mind, there's something about him that's wanting me to get closer to him, but when faced with him like this, all I wanted was to get out of his perimeter. His area of proximity, not because I wanted to but because I needed to. 

 His area is not mine to invade, not mine to share, and not mine to enter.

But there's this strong pull that I can feel every time I get to see him, even his scent is not foreign to me. This weird feeling that I am always bound to get closer to him, even though my mind thinks it's unnecessary and just pure bull as to why would I want that.

I opened my mouth to say something pero I've decided that it would be better if I keep my darn mouth shut. Yumuko ako ng bahagya bilang pahiwatig sakaniya na aalis na ako, ewan ko kung naintindihan niya ba 'yon or hindi. Pero sa tingin ko ay hindi, dahil humarang siya sa daraanan ko sana. 

Napatingin naman ako saknaiya agad sa ginawa niyang ito, I raised my brow at him and gave him a questioning look.

He then, looked at me sideways first before smirking, "I can not fucking wait for you to understand." Was all he said before leaving me alone with my thoughts whirling around the aisle of these books.

In the midst of our class discussion in the lab, a men or two entered, though it's not a surprise naymore dahil inorient naman kami na mayroon daw na maglilibot upang i-asses ang per laboratory for security purposes. 

Hindi naman na ako nakatingin pa na kung sino o ilan ang pumaosk dahil mag isa lamang akong nagawa ng activity about both male and female reproductive organ. It was supposed to be me and my partner who'll be doing this, but she stood me up. She's absent today kaya wala akong nagawa kung hindi sagutan ito, though sabi ni Professor Jacinto ay may incentives ako dhail ako lang then, who the fuck cares sa incentives kung ako at ako lang 'din anman ang gagawa pala nito? If only I knew she's not going today ay hindi nalang 'din sana ako pumunta.

Itong subject pa naman 'yung palaging may ginagawa. In front of me is replica model of both organ, while on the tablet on my right is a video of both sexes. Of course, this is not new for me anymore. This is pure science, I get that.

Kaya naman halos dutdutin ko na 'tong female reproductive organ na nasa harapan ko gamit ang monitoring stick, while listening to the discussion that's playing in the tab through earphones, hindo ko maiwasang mainis 'din sa dildo na katabi nito. 

When I've reached the part of the module where I needed to go and observe the inner part of the female's vagina replica ay nagsuot na ako ng gloves at nagpatak na 'rin dito ng lube, I was asked to write down the measure of how may centimeters can my fingers reach the end very end of the model in front of me, and so I did.

I couldn't get my middle finger inside of the replica right because of the gloves and how tight the entrance of my model is, I lashed out. 

"This vagina is too tight!" Hindi ko na namalayan na pasigaw ko pala 'yon na nabanggit dahil medyo nadala ako sa inis at sa patuloy na pagsasalita sa pinakikinggan kong lesson sa tablet.

When I've decided to say my apologies to the professor, I was slapped with pure shame as to how the whole class' looking at me now. Some are even looking at me with pure disbelief, while others are hardly containing their laughs. 

But what had put me in full embarrassment was the group of people in front. Tila nagbigla, hindi dahil sa hiyaw ko, kung hindi dahil sa sinabi ko. They're all dressed in a black corporate attire at meron  name plate na nakalagay ay 'The Officials' written in a bold and black ink.

All I can do was to cover my mouth in shock.