Pure Seduction | JJK - KTH (ONGOING)

twenty-one

As Jungkook drove home, the father away he got, the more that sense of warmth started to go away. When he arrived and entered his home, he felt chilly, rubbing his arms for a moment, his head tilting as his brows moved inwards and up in a confused manner.

"Did I turn on the A/C too high or something?" Though, his air conditioning wasn't even on.

Jungkook put down his keys with an uneasy feeling, taking his shoes off and placing them to the side. As he sat on his couch, he kept wondering if Taehyung would really be well. If he could survive more than a week. Though he's done it before, except, he starved himself rather than actually having to ingest food and then have to throw it up afterwards.

He was also uneasy about the way he had left. Sighing, "I wish I could've worded it better..." He brought his legs up, hugged his pillow, and laid his back down onto the couch, exhaling deeply.

"It's not like... I don't, care? For him?" Shaking his head, "I can't say, that I... love him. Can I?" he started biting his nails and felt colder, shivering slightly, "It's just so weird." Closing his eyes for a moment, he began to just think. Soon opening his eyes to be met with the white of his ceiling again, "It's confusing... " Pausing, "I can't... I can't just, love him, just like that... father will kill me, literally. I don't want to lead him on or something and just leave all of a sudden, and I don't want to lie about anything. I'm simply not like that."

He couldn't stop and he only frustrated himself even more, "He's been the only one who's made me feel things again in... centuries. I've been able to feel things I haven't felt in so long, together, with someone, and without." his brows furrowed again, "Ever since Mina passed away, I've been like an empty shell of nothingness." Jungkook's arm covered his eyes. Frowning, he still hasn't gotten over her, his first love, and in theory, his last.

Jungkook's father hadn't known about Mina until Dean decided to intervene one day. Jungkook wanted to tell his father when he was ready, but he was too late. Dean was jealous of Jungkook. He had always gotten to things before Dean had a chance to. His sense friendship was gone as he saw Mina had a liking to Jungkook, and then, their love bloomed, and so did Dean's jealousy and hatred towards Jungkook. Day by day it grew, and he couldn't do anything about it. So he had to hide it. Then, on the day that Jungkook wanted to tell his father about Mina, Dean fucked everything up.

Dean was supposed to pick up Mina and bring her over since Jungkook was busy preparing for everything. He wanted to make everything perfect before introducing her to his father and everything. As he was preparing dinner, his phone rung. He answered to Dean screaming, crying, and hyperventilating. He couldn't make out anything he said because of how he was acting, but he made his way over with his father.

He was confused the whole way there and on edge, but as soon as he drove up to him, the first thing he saw was Dean's car flipped over with glass everywhere, and Mina's body lying on the ground,  lifelessly. Slamming the breaks, he ran out of the car, ran past Dean, and went to check up on Mina. He tried everything, but nothing happened. He simply wailed his heart out with his lover in his arms, cold, pale, she was long gone.

After a few months of drowning in depression, he killed himself. Alone at home, he took a mouthful of random pills and overdosed, right in the middle of his kitchen. It was already too late when his father came home, but, being the king of the underworld, he brought his son back to life. Jungkook was revived, but, as a reaper. For his own good, Jungkook was punished to never love again in the entirety of his new life, and that if he did, his father would take that second chance of life he has, away from him.

It's crazy to think that your own father would bring you back to life, then, also not hesitate to kill you. Jungkook does not know it is a bluff, but, his father had to for his own safety. He wants the best for his son as does any other parent. He wants to protect Jungkook as long as he can. Because of that, he's only suffered his way to finally achieve a sense of numbness.

Taehyung helped Jungkook come out of his numb and blind state, but he fears he would disappear before the silver haired boy has the chance to properly feel happiness and love for the first time in his life.

To say he's hesitant is an understatement. He's frantic, worried, the poor reaper doesn't know what to do. "I... I have to get over it."

With a frustrated sigh, Jungkook put his arm down and looked to the side. On the table, was the bat pendant. He had forgotten to put it away, so it just sat there for the time being until it was to be put back into its rightful place.

This pendant, however, was a special one. The dagger pointed amethyst crystal the bat wrapped around kept all of Jungkook's most precious memories in them. It also incapsulated important moments in his life, as well as the times he's saved someone and given them a second chance. Like Dean, and Taehyung.

If there is a moment in time that will bring harm to him or stand like wall in his path and not let him through, he can see it within the crystal. The same thing happens when there's a time of struggle and confusion. He knows he has to face it, so, once it's been dealt with, it fades away. Just like the night that he had to encounter Dean.

It was glowing at the time, and he could feel its energy. That's what led him to Dean. Then, once he did what he had to, everything about Dean faded away.

Though it has only done this a bit more than a few times, he didn't think it was bound to happen again, so soon.

His eyes sparkled as the crystal was pulsing, then, turning into a soft glow. It was bright, but soft and calm. Not so much of an intense glow, one to make you squint, rather, it was one to draw you in.

He grabbed his pendant and held it, examining it, "What the—" furrowing is brows, "It shouldn't be doing that... at least, not right now?"

After a few moments of examining it, he then saw it. Except, this time, everything played like a movie in his head in slow motion. All of the times he had spent with Mina, from the beginning til the end, all the times he was fighting with his own inner demons, crying, to when he took his own life. Taehyung was there too, resembling a form of light in his life. The crystal showed him what had to be done, what he had to forget and what he had to grasp.

Jungkook gasped at all the sudden flashbacks and memories pouring back inside him. He dropped the pendant onto the floor and clutched his heart, breathing hastily, eyes wide open with tears rolling down the soft skin of his cheeks... then he screamed.

He felt so many different emotions, playing with his heart like a guitar, yet, in the most aggressive way possible. To the point your fingers will be raw and bleeding, where the guitars strings would be snapped; the guitar, left unplayable and your fingers, left to bleed and burn, not able to heal properly.

He was something he could have never imagined. He felt like roaring out his emotions and clawing the walls. He wanted to scratch through his flesh and pick out the pain in his veins that ran throughout his body. To put an end to it, to make him stop hurting, to make his heart stop feeling like it was being clutched so hard that it would pop.

To make his bones stop from freezing and rattling within him.

To stop him from shivering and hyperventilating.

To stop his every breath in, from becoming a type of cold that burned through his lungs.

To make every tear stop from feeling like it was melting through his skin, like acid.

To simply... just, stop the pain.

But he couldn't. Jungkook couldn't stop anything. His wails got louder and louder for every minute that passed. If he had claws, he'd scratch his way to his skull and rip it apart to pick out the memories that haunted him beyond measure, deep within this brain. Yet, he simply could not.

It rotted his brain, hit his heart like a plague, and made his bones feel so fragile, weak, and frozen to such an extent that if it were merely poked at, it would shatter.

"M—make it stop! S—stop it! Just—" Jungkook couldn't stop shaking, his tears were running down like a waterfall, pooling itself into the fabric that now stuck to his skin.

With all his might, already at his breaking point, he screamed to the top of his lungs, "MAKE IT STOP!!"

"Somebody... make it stop... I— I can't just... forget her."
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A/N: poor bby really loved his first love literally til death made him part— and beyond. I apologize for making this one short :"D