Attack On Titan One-Shots

Levi x Suicidal Reader: Here I Am

Here we go again with some reposts. I would just like to say that I don't mean to offend anyone or make anyone uncomfortable. If anything I want to spread awareness because suicide is a problem, whether it's from bullying, family abuse or just whatever the situation is, it shouldn't have to be an option. For those who are going through a rough time and this, you can always come chat with me. Believe it or not but I used to be in a place like that when I was in high school. I did a lot of stupid things then too, I used to cut and deal with depression (I still do to this day but not as bad as I used to). And some times talking to friends or family doesn't help, I know it didn't help me when I was going through it because no one seemed to understand. So if any of you ever have something you feel you want to get off your chest and can't go to someone you know about I'm always here. You can also talk with the Suicide Hotline people although I don't know many people who have talked to them, but it's still an option. And remember your life is precious, and if you think no one would miss you, then find better people to surround yourself with who will be there to lift you up and stick with you through your dark time and good times. 

1-800-273-8255 There is the number to the Suicide Prevention Hotline, do what you want with it.

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~(Y/N)~

I woke up feeling like crap. The sun was shining in my face. I get up and hide the razor I had used last night to cut with. I go to take a shower then changed into uniform. I made sure I wore a long sleep shirt to hide the fresh cuts. I threw on my jacket and left my room. I went to the mess hall and eat breakfast, there I sat by myself as usual.

No one knew about the whole cutting thing I had been doing if anyone did they'd pity me that's for sure. I've done it for about a year or so since I lost my sister from the titans that's when I also joined the scouts hoping to help out but Levi has me stuck here cleaning. I had no family, no friends I was all alone here.

I had to be extra careful with my right hand and show no sign of discomfort. I quickly eat my food and head to the training grounds. On my way I saw Captain Levi. "Cadet (L/N) when you finish training you need to clean my office." he says.

"Yes sir." I say I salute him and go train.

I trained hard as my right arm went numb after I had practiced I noticed it started to bleed. "Shit," I say to myself. I hide my arm and run inside and quickly go to my room and change my shirt and clean the wounds.

I then make my way down to Levi's office with cleaning supplies. I knock on the door and wait. "Name and business." I hear him say.

"Cadet (L/N) you wanted your office cleaned," I say.

"Come in." he says.

I open the door and walk in then shut it again. I look to see he was sitting there doing paperwork with a cup of tea by his side. I take the duster and began dusting his shelves. My back was toward him but I felt eyes on me. I got on my tippy toes and stretched upward. I felt a cold breeze on the lower part of my back. What my shirt riding up? I stand normally and fix my shirt then dust the lower shelves. I turn and notice Levi had gotten up. He went over to refill his cup of tea.

I ignored him and went to clean his desk. I felt a sharp pain in my right arm from the cuts. I jerk my hand back then start using my left hand. I peek over seeing Levi staring at me concerned. I continue to clean but slower than usual. I go over to the other shelf and start dusting that. I got on my tippy toes while I was dusting I hit my right arm on the lower shelf causing me to hiss in pain a bit. I bit my lower lip trying to keep myself from yelping in pain. "Is everything alright (Y/N)?" Levi asks.