Why am I different? (M-preg) Completed

Ch. 3 Why?

*Warning* these next few chapters are not going to be happy and will have angst and hurtful words said. Please be patient and understanding that this is needed in order for the story to grow. There will be more chapters later on with similar themes but will be lighter.

*Kong age: 5, Tin age: 7, Phana age: 9*

Little Kong's P.O.V.

I don't know why but Pa seems to be mad at me. I don't know why but it scares me. Every time I look at him, I see him staring back at me looking very mad and there's another emotion that I don't know yet. I have tried asking P'Tin and P'Phana why Pa doesn't like me but they say that he is mad because he had a bad day at work. I believe my P's but it still doesn't seem like that is the right answer.

I came home one day from Kindergarten feeling proud of myself because I had memorized the whole Thai alphabet and the numbers 1-30 within a couple of classes. I had my class worksheet with me and walked to my Pa's office to show him my achievements. I knocked on the door and entered after I heard a short 'Come in.' I took a deep breath and walked over to his desk. Pa was looking at some papers, so I decided to clear my throat.

"Pa, I have memorized the whole Thai alphabet and the numbers 1-30 in just two classes," I said feeling proud of myself.

I waited for Pa's response but I got nothing. I looked at him and suddenly felt afraid. He was looking at me like he didn't like me.

"P-P-Pa?" I asked while looking at him.

BANG!

That was the sound of him slamming his fists onto his desk. Feeling scared, I started to back up and tried to leave his office, but he grabbed my right arm squeezing it.

"You are a disgrace. I can't believe you are alive. It should have been your mother." Pa spat at me as he looked at me with a strange expression that I didn't like.

"P-P-Pa you're hurting me." I let out as I felt tears start to fall.

He shoved me away and I fell on the floor hurting my right knee. I tried not to cry but the pain was too much. As the tears fell and my cries got louder, Pa started to throw things near me. After a few minutes, the door burst open and I saw my P's standing there looking confused until they saw the state of the room.

P'Phana glared at Pa while P'Tin helped me up being very careful not to touch my boo-boos. I hugged P'Tin and started to cry even more. He slowly took me out of the room and into his room while P'Phana stayed in the office. I tried to call for him to follow us but P'Tin said that everything would be okay. I nodded my head and laid on his shoulder as the tears fell and my sobs came back but only for a few minutes before I fell asleep.

I didn't feel P'Tin tucking me into his bed or his kiss good night, or hearing P'Phana enter the room and climb into the bed to snuggle with us.

I woke up a few hours later from P'Tin and P'Phana's gentle tugging of my arms. I looked at them feeling sleepy and confused. They quickly explained that it was dinner time and that I should wash up. I became very excited and quickly raced to the bathroom hearing them both chuckle at me. I washed my hands and face before racing back to them so we could walk to the dining room together.

As we entered the room, it became silent and the temperature seemed to become colder. I looked up and saw Pa glaring at me but he quickly changed it to a poker face as P'Phana glared at him. I looked at P'Phana in confusion but he just urged me to get into my chair. I did so with some enthusiasm which caused my P's to laugh ignoring Pa's glare. Once everyone was seated, the chefs and servants.

(Sorry backtracking for a second. After Kong was born and their father found out about his condition, he poured himself into work and ended up becoming the CEO of a Real Estate company. So now they live in a much bigger house and there are servants, butlers, chauffeurs, etc..)

We ate in silence as no one wanted to talk. I looked at Pa every so often and could still see that he didn't like me. I felt sad and lonely. What did he mean about mom should have lived not me? I'll ask P's about what Pa said. I decided as we finished up our dinner and left the dining room to go back to P'Tin's room. We all had our own bedrooms but I also felt scared to sleep alone so I would switch between P'Tin's room and P'Phana's room. They didn't mind and it helped me to sleep at night.

As we sat on the bed, I decided to ask them.

"P's!"

"Yes, Kong?" They both said in unison

"What does Pa mean when he said that Mae should have lived and not me?" I asked feeling scared and worried about the answer I would receive.

I looked at P's faces and saw that they were shocked and confused.

"Kong when did Pa say that?" They asked.

"Earlier right before you guys came into the office. I was showing him my progress in school and thought he might be proud of me. That's when he spat those words to me." I said feeling sad again.

"Kong...." They started

Sorry to end there. I want to pace this story and my other one as well. I am hoping to upload at least one chapter every two-three weeks, but hoping for multiple chapters upload that way you will be happy. As I said earlier, then the next few chapters will be sad and make you very mad at the Dad. Please don't send me any hate comments or DM. I understand your anger but this is just a story.

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