Why am I different? (M-preg) Completed

Ch.4 Hate

*This is five years later. Kong age: 10, Tin age: 12, and Phana age: 14*

Kong's P.O.V.

How would you feel if you found out that you could do something that only women can do? Would you feel happy, scared, confused, worried? Would you hate yourself? Well, I have been thinking about this since my P's told me the answer to the question I had been wanting to know. Five years have passed. I think some of you are wondering why a five-year-old was told the truth. Well, I think we can all agree that sometimes knowing the truth instead of a lie is better. I know why my Pa hates me and that there is nothing I can do to fix it. I make sure to stay clear of him whenever the both of us are home.

I hang out with my P's and ask them for help with my homework and any issues I have. I have also figured out that P'Pha is very protective of me and I like it but also don't like it. I feel like I can't do anything I want, but luckily talking to him helps to lessen his protectiveness sometimes. I love my P's and they love me. I feel loved but knowing that the one person I really want love from won't return it, hurts a lot.

Today was a really bad day and it left me with tears streaming down my face and my body in the fetal position.

I got home before my P's and didn't know that my Pa was working from home. I walked to the kitchen and started chatting with Aunt Sky. She was half-Thai, half-American and loved us kids so much. She didn't have her own kids and actually couldn't. We felt sad for her but made sure to be on our best behavior and never make her sad.

"Good Afternoon Khun Kong."

"Good Afternoon Aunty Sky," I said as I waii her in greeting.

She smiled and chuckled at my innocent expression as she handed me a plate of sliced apples, some strawberries and a glass of water.

I thanked her for the snack and quietly started eating. It wasn't even five minutes later when my Pa walked into the kitchen and stopped in his tracks when he saw me.

I stopped eating and tried to avoid looking at him. I have learned from experience that if I look at him, it just makes it worse.

*Warning slight violence ahead*

I was just getting up from my seat when I was suddenly flung across the room hitting the pantry door. I felt pain erupt throughout my body as my eyes tried to stay open to see what was happening. I could hear Aunty Sky screaming and placing herself between Pa and me. I tried to get up but the pain was too much. I let out a groan and felt a trickling coming from my head. I slowly brought my right hand up and touched my head. I looked at my hand and saw blood.

I was too focused on my hand that I didn't see that my Pa had pushed Aunty Sky out of the way and was heading for me again. I found out at the last second as I brought my arms up to shield myself. I was waiting for the next hit but it never came.

I waited a few minutes and then took the chance to look up. I see P'Pha was pushing Pa back and hit him. P'Tin was bent over me trying to see where all my injuries were. Aunty Sky recovered and ran to get the medical kit. She gave it to P'Tin as he slowly cleaned my injuries and then picked me up bridal style as we left the kitchen and headed to P'Pha's room.

I don't know how much time had passed before P'Pha came to his room but it felt like forever. I had passed out from the immense amount of pain once I hit the bed. I woke up from gentle touches and tugs on me from my P's.

I opened my eyes and the tears fell. They hugged me and whispered soothing words into my ears as I cried. I really felt like I shouldn't be alive right now. My Pa hated me so much that he was willing to hurt me and scream at me without caring for my feelings.

"P's why am I alive?" I screamed as my emotions just poured out. I couldn't deal with the pain and torture anymore. I wanted it to go away.

"Shhhhh. Kong you're alive because that's what Mae would want. We want you alive and we will make sure Pa pays for what he's done." P'Pha and P'Tin said in unison as they gently hugged me and rubbed soothing circles on my back.

I know that you may be mad or upset plus sad about everything that is happening but don't worry it gets better.