THE LEGENDARY HOT GIRL | ATEEZ 18+

9 | PROCEED WITH CAUTION

I didn't leave.

I went to all my classes that day and had my lunch outdoors by myself.

There were looks from everyone who encountered me, gossiping from many around me. But I was used to it: the dirty glares, the constant whispering. I grew up with this.

Words hurt me, but only for a while. But it's my own emotional pain that hurts forever. My own thoughts hurt me than the thoughts of others because it's my own that I cannot control. I hear it over and over, I'm reminded of it each and every day.

No one loves you.

You are unloved.

You are worthless.

Could you have imagined that the girl born with beauty, an excessive amount of wealth and bolstering fame would feel like....

Nothing?

I was alone, I was always alone.

Then I had Jongho.

But not now.

I couldn't tell the twins about what happened because I couldn't bare the thought of ruining their first day, so you could imagine the look on their faces when they finally see me after school. I was waiting for our car to approach and the twins hadn't even recognized me until I got into the car.

"What happened?!" Wooyoung shouts a little too loud.

"She fell down the stairs," San says sarcastically. "What does it look like?!"

"Did you get jumped?! Why did they jump you?" Wooyoung proceeds to ask.

"Because I'm a mommy murdering psycho," I rephrase the girl from earlier. As much as I wanted to disagree, she was right.

Maybe all those years being locked and drugged up really took a toll on my mental health. Maybe I really was a psycho. No normal human being could've possibly just... snapped the way I did when I decided to push her down the stairs, right? I suppose this was my punishment.

I couldn't escape karma.

I deserved this.

"We all make mistakes," says Wooyoung.

San looks at him uneasy, almost like he disagrees. I didn't mind it, I'd probably be the same way. A lot of people were.

"No, it wasn't a mistake." I tell them. "I'm a psycho, I really did push my step mother down the stairs. I don't know what happened, we argued and I just lost it and I pushed her."

They're both silent. Wooyoung's eyes simmered, more calm than before. He seemed more sympathetic toward my situation than San was. San showed no emotion so it was difficult to tell what he was thinking.

"Seonghwa did bad things," says Wooyoung. "But we still love him."

"Seonghwa did what he had to do," San turns too Wooyoung and defends his brother. He then looks at me. "But you pushed someone down the stairs because your emotions took over you."

"You wanna hit me too?" I offer.

San doesn't react. "We knew this since Seonghwa told us he was going to get married, at the beginning of your trial. We told him that it was a bad idea and I even tried to convince him not to help you.