Use Me Please [Mature Content]

Chapter 40

"I'm sorry"

He repeated for what seems like thousand of times as I continue to gave him the cold shoulder.

"I know it's fully my fault.I'm so sorry Haeryn..."

Cringing my nose as he hugs me tight, I push him away firmly before grabbing another bite of the stupid toast that doesn't even taste right because I obviously did not spread the jam before folding them into halves.

'You should be, not just to me but to her too. Kissing and touching a girl you supposingly don't even like AND you should feel even more sorry because she obviously likes you.'

"No... she don't"

'You can't be this blind.'

Rolling my eyes as I watch him struggle to come to terms with the bubble I just broke. 

"...how can you be sure? She never ever mention it"

By now I'm grinding my teeth as I tried as calmly as I could to place the toast back down on the plate.

'Yes, how can I be so sure? Hmm... maybe it was that time when you ordered me to send you towels and you pull her into your embrace and her expression lit up? OR was it that time when you ordered me to bring up your breakfast in bed and you kiss her neck and her smile grew so big... Or was it that ti-'

"Sorry..."

He pulled me back into his embrace and rub my back as if trying to calm me down as I finally broke into tears as I recall all those memories.

'Damn it...she should be the one crying, not me...Did you even apologize to her?'

Wiping off my tears, I feel even more guilt than anger as I have him consoling me here while she is left alone.

"...I will, I promise"

'...but I'll be jealous again'

"Then I won't"

'...but you should'

"So...I'll apologize.."

'...fine'

Making sure I swallowed the rest of my tears back in, I pulled myself away from his embrace.

'I'm sorry...but I don't want to hug right now.'

Breaking my gaze away from his, I finish the toast silently and walk away to wash the dish.