Use Me Please [Mature Content]

Chapter 26

Life goes on just like how it did before Park Seo Joon appeared. Only that now I have a driver and a lurking bodyguard everywhere I went and sometimes it feels unfair for me because everywhere I went to it had his memories..the hotel I work with, the car that drove me, and even my home.

And although I miss him more than I thought I would and is constantly thinking about what he is doing, I fight the urge to message or call him unless he initiates it.

I shouldn't be a bother to him.

As loser-ish as I sound right now, I realized quickly in the past week how afraid I am to lose him and how low my confidence is when it comes to him.

Jae, on the other hand, had disappeared fully from my life. Last I heard of, the management told us that he had requested for a different hotel and was granted to do just that immediately. When I mention that to Park Seo Joon the last time he called, his calm reaction told me that he had everything to do with whatever happened with Jae.

And now it had been almost five days since he last texted or call me. Making sure that my phone is constantly charged and checking if there is a new message in...and still my phone remains silent despite all my effort. Sometimes I think I might be going crazy from it.

"Are you okay?"

I hid my phone behind me and quickly look up to see the new colleague that came to took Jae's position smiling politely back at me.

'Uh...yes. I'm good, sorry, let my mind slip for a bit.'

I nodded back and pretended to pull out some file stuffed by my desk to get busy with.

"Okay. The customer..."

Following his gaze to the customer standing opposite me, I wanted to slap myself awake. How did I not notice a customer was right in front of me?!

'Oh yes, sorry... Good evening sir, how may I assist you today?'

Nodding politely back to thank him, I turn my attention back to the customer.

I guess I really need to push Park Seo Joon thoughts aside if I want to continue working here. My work performance has obviously dropped and most of the time I can't seem to focus on the tasks. I really hate how I'm behaving and yet I can't seem to jump out of this stupid cycle.

Maybe Jae is right after all, maybe I was asking for too much to think that Park Seo Joon and I can be something together.