paroxysm | j.jh

36 - Narration

2 weeks later

S A V A N N A H

"SAVANNAH!" napalingon ako agad sa sigaw na 'yon at nakita ko si Nayeon na pandi-kaway sakin.

I laughed at the sight of them.

"Wow! Bongga! Dami kong kaon ah? Hani na ba lahat pangalan niyo?" I told them when I was already near them.

Nasa harapan ko sila Hani, Lucas, Mark, Nayeon, Eve, Jaerin and all the NCT Dreams. Why are they all here? It is Monday so I didn't expect a lot of them to come! May pasok kaya!

"We missed you!" Eve. Tapos yumapos pa sakin. I hugged her back and Jaerin too.

Of course! Malamang kaya nandito ang Dreams ay nandito sila Jaerin at Nayeon. Renjun and Jaemin probably wanted to be here because of them. At dahil dakilang pakisama sila Haechan, sumama na din.

"Sus! Pasalubong lang gusto niyo e." pagkukunyari ko pa.

Mark chuckled as he messed my hair and helped me with my things.

"How's the trip?" He asked.

"Bitin." maikli kong sagot.

Lucas just gave me a hug as well as the other boys bago sila nagsimula nang maglakad papuntang parking lot.

"Are you... okay now?" napabalik ang tingin ko kay Mark ng magtanong siya ng ganon.

"What do you mean by okay? Kung move on na ba ako?" diretso kong tanong habang may ngisi pa sa aking labi. He was amused for a while pero nagiwas din ng tingin agad.

"Oo."

"Honestly, hindi pa. I think my feelings for Jaehyun is way deeper than I actually thought. It was impossible for me to get over of it in just two weeks."

Ayon ang totoo. In the past two weeks that I have been away, I tried clouding my thoughts. I tried hard not to think of him. I was kind of determined to forget about my feelings.

Pero mahirap pala talaga, lalo na kung mahal mo na ang isang tao. Kung simpleng pagkagusto lang siguro 'to, nakaget over na ako agad. Lalo lang tuloy akong naiinis kay Jaehyun. To know that he thinks my feelings for him is too shallow.

Ilang buwan ko siyang sinuyo, hinabol habol at nagpapansin pa ako sa kanya. Ilang buwan din 'yon! I'm not ignorant! I know some of my schoolmates who likes me, pero kahit ganon, diko yon pinansin! He's all that I want! Pero mukhang hindi ako ang gusto niya.

I realised I wasn't treated well this past few months. I think its time for me to show some love for myself.

"You'll get over him." Mark. Napatingin ako sa kanya at napangiti.

"Oo naman. Ako pa ba?" my voice was filled by nothing but confidence. I was very sure that I'll get over Jung Jaehyun.

The moment I settled myself inside the car, my phone vibrated. I unlocked it at unang bumungad sakin ay ang chat box namin ni Eunwoo.

I rolled my eyes and the corner of my lips lifted a bit. Eunwoo oppa is annoying because he's a very persistent person. As in kahit ilang beses ko siyang tarayan ay walang epekto. He still messaged and pester me all the time. It's like, he's the boy version of me. Only, more annoying.

But I'm glad... that he was perstering me.