paroxysm | j.jh

78 - Narration

J A E H Y U N

I stared at Savannah's back while she was walking they're way to their apartment building. I wanted to walk her up until their apartment's door. But she refused and told me to go already because my friends are already waiting. Fuck them. Why do I have to go when I can cuddle with Savannah?

Halos matampal ko ng malakas ang noo ko. Since when did I became this clingy? As far as I remember, I'm not like this. I've never been like this! Look what Savannah has turned me into.

I was battling with my own mind when I heard my phone rang. Napairap ako at walang tingin-tingin 'to sinagot.

"What?"

"Asan ka na Jung? Sinasabi ko sayo magb-break talaga kayo nan ni Savannah!" it was DK. Hearing his voice hurts my ear and hearing what he said made me want to strangle him.

"Papunta na. I just dropped my girlfriend at their apartment." I said sounding so proud. Nakangiti ako ng buhayin ko ang makina ng sasakyan. My sister rode with Taeyong hyung together with Jaemin. He'll take care of her for sure, or else yare siya sakin.

"Tss. Whipped. Bilisan mo, nalalasing na si Minghao baka pasayawin ng mga 'to sa dancefloor."

Napailing ako as I exit from the parking lot. Mga sira-ulo talaga ang mga 'to. Why am I friends with them?

"Wag kayo magkalat sa jan, DK. I'll forget you're my friends."

"Just hurry up, fucker." he said before dropping the call. I sighed heavily and lazily drove my way to them.

I actually don't want to go. But Savannah's right. I have a life before her so I should continue living it. I don't want to be so clingy although I feel like I'm already very clingy.

When I first think of me liking Savannah, I thought it will be just a mild kind of like. But what is this? Why am I so clingy and possessive? She is driving me crazy!

"What's up," I greeted my friends after I found them in one of the tables here at Dionysus. They already finished couple of liquors.

"Finally! Akala ko nakulong ka nanaman sa apartment ng girlfriend mo e." Jungkook said. He sounded so normal. Siguro nandadaya nanaman 'to ng inom. I know him, madaya 'to.

I roamed my eyes and realize that Bambam and Mingyu is not here. Tiningnan ko si DK na busy sa pagsalin ng Jack Daniels sa shot glass.

Tiningnan ko si Winwin na nakapikit na habang nakasandal sa sofa. I tapped him once kaya napamulat.

"Kaya pa? Akala ko ba saglit ka lang kasi may shift ka bukas?" I asked him.

Minghao was beside Jungkook and his ears are already red. Siguradong may tama na nga ang isang 'to. Ganito siya kapag marami na nainom eh.

"Ayaw ako paalisin ni DK." Winwin. Napailing ako. Lagot ako kay Taeil hyung kapag nalaman niyang hindi umuwe si Winwin at baka makaliban pa 'to ng shift niya bukas.

"Stop drinking already. Baka 'di ka pa makapasok bukas." I tried explaining to him. Napalingon na sa dako ko si Minghao at isiningkit pa ang mga mata niya---tinitingnan kung ako nga 'to. Lasing na nga,