I'll be your light

↠ five *

Bree's pov

I sat there in my bunk completely shocked. Cameron saved me, I thought he didn't care.

no of course he cares! he wouldn't have stopped that guy if he didn't care!

my subconscious added. My subconscious 99% of the time is right. So there I was sitting in my bed in the dark not knowing what to say to Cameron when he woke up. What if he yells at me for bringing it up? I can tell he has mood swings, or either I have too much faith in him and he's just a complete asshole. I seriously hope it's the first one.

7 hours later

"Cameron!" I said rubbing his shoulder
"Don't touch me Bree" he growled. Well damn he's not a morning person, or an afternoon person. I mean it's 2 in the afternoon.
"No get up we need to talk" I said placing my hands on my hips as he stared up at me. His cheeks were flushed.
"What prissy?" He groaned while rubbing the sleep from his eyes. His sleepy voice was so sexy.

Dammit Bree stop!!

"Why did you really stop that guy last night ?"
"I already told you"
"I don't believe you" I said, knowing that wasn't true. I did believe him, but I needed him to at least open up. I'm guessing that me saying that set him off because he jumped up and got in my face.
"Well then don't!" he yelled, his fist balled at his sides. I decided to test him.
"Hit me Cam! hit me I know you want to!" I urged him, deep down inside I hope he doesn't.
"No..." he mumbled while sitting down and putting his head in his hands. For once he didn't look like a bad ass, he looked ... broken.
"I can't hit you, and please don't you dare call me Cam again" he said his eyes filled with tears.
"Tell me cameron, why did you save me from that guy"
"Because if you're gonna lose your virginity it's gonna be to me!" he yelled.

And just like that, my remorse for his faded, who does he think I am? some sex slave just because I share a room with him? Definitely not.
"What?" I said shocked at his bluntness.
"Forget it" he said jumping up grabbing his keys and heading out the room. Well then, back to square one.
With nothing to do and no one to talk to, I went out to the college Starbucks to get a coffee and hopefully find someone to hang out with.
"Straight black coffee please" I smiled at the guy behind the counter his name tag read Logan.
"Wow I hardly hear people say that! I thought I was the only one who liked my coffee plain" he laughed as he handed me my coffee.

"What's your name?"
"Bree" I smiled while taking a sip of my coffee
"Oh cool, well Bree wanna grab some lunch? My shift ends in a few minutes." He smiled. He was kinda cute, the complete opposite of Cameron. He had small gauges, blonde hair that was kind of flippy, olive skin and all around looked so nice.
"Yeah, sure" I smiled as he returned one while taking the last order of his shift.
"So where do you want to go?" he smiled as we walked out into the hot summer air.
"I honestly don't know. I've only been here since yesterday I'm a freshman" I blushed while sipping my almost gone coffee.
"Oh. I'm a junior" he laughed
"Oh cool" I acted excited but I wasnt, I didn't care. I don't mean to sound bitchy and all but I hated small talk.
"So who's your roommate"
"His names Cameron" I mumbled
"Ohhhhh Cameron Cartman?"
"I don't know. He never told me his last name." I mumbled, here we go again. Someone's gonna warn me again.

"What does he look like"
"An asshole" I mumbled hardly above a whisper.
"What did you say? I didn't hear you" Logan said
"I said um. he has blackish hair, piercing, green eyes, he wears eyeliner." I said while picturing him. Cameron was honestly really cute despite his personality.
"Ohhh Cameron Pierce he's not a good guy"
"Trust me, I've been told" I huffed.
"Look I gotta go prepare for Monday, maybe we can have lunch another time?" He said
"Uh yeah sure." I smiled
"Okay, well I'll see you around. Bye Bree" he waved as he began walking the opposite direction from me. as I began walking back to my dorm to find Cameron sitting on the bed looking puzzled.

"Cameron?"
"Can I try something real quick?"
"What do you mea-" before I completed my sentence I felt Cameron's lips on mine.
"Get off!" I said pushing him back as he looked hurt and confused.
"I.. I'm sorry" he mumbled
"Why did you kiss me?! What are you doing?!"
"I wanted to see something."
"Well I'm not a science project so stop testing shit" I said even though I wanted his lips on mine again, they were so soft and just ...
"I'm going to bed" he said laying down
"Okay?" I said trying to act like I didn't care.

I did, I cared.

I wanted him to actually cared for me, but he's too back and forth and I've only known him for a day. This is too much right now.