I'll be your light

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Bree's pov

I honestly did not expect Cameron to come up onto my bed and cuddle with me. It was so cute and I'm happy he did it, because I LOVE cuddling, but flirting with Chelsea right in front of me crossed a line. I'm basically putting my heart on the line, turning down dates because I'm hoping he'll ask me out. What does he think he's gonna get out of this? nothing. Because I'm done giving in to him. I'm not some toy, I'm a human being with feelings. Instead of going to my 2 o'clock History class I called in sick and sat in the room listening to music, which consisted of Ed Sheeran, Crown The Empire, and 5 Seconds Of Summer . Because that always cheers me up. Around 6 there was a knock at the door when I opened it, it was the slut i'd seen with Cameron multiple times; Stacy.

"What do you want?" I said looking at her with complete disgusted. She was so trashy. Make up caked on her face. Short pencil skirt and a tank top that was basically all fishnet design. Seriously how does Cameron fuck her? puts a bag on her head?
"I want you to stop doing whatever your doing to Cameron!" She shouted. The hell?
"I'm not doing anything" I yelled right back
"You must be doing something because he moaned your name while fucking me!" As soon as she said that I couldn't hold back anymore, I laughed right there in her face.
"You fucking bitch!" she said slapping me in the face as her nail cut a at least 1 inch long cut onto my cheek. I pushed her out of the room and slammed the door shut remembering to lock it before I rushed to the bathroom to clean it. it's definitely gonna scab over, fuck! What a bitch. What am I gonna tell Cameron? Is he gonna get mad at her? Or not even care that I'm hurt? a bunch of emotions overtook me again and before I knew it I was searching my bag for that little piece of metal that I'd come fond of for the past 3 years.

•••WARNING: MAY BE TRIGGERING. SO IF YOU DONT WANT TO READ THIS PART. PLEASE SKIP OVER IT. ILL PUT STARS ONCE ITS OVER.•••

I sat in the bathroom floor and began slashing at my upper thighs where no one could see. It's been 8 months since I've done this, but I need the release. As blood started to ooze out of my thigh i began to calm down. Once I was done with over a dozen fresh cuts. I rinsed off the razor blade and cleaned up my leg.

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Once I left the bathroom, I went onto my bed and pulled up YouTube on my computer. I needed to smile. I quickly typed in Patty Walters, my favorite youtuber. he sings and his voice calms me down and makes me happy. I clicked his most recent cover. It was 'She looks so perfect' by 5 Seconds Of Summer. After watching a decent amount of his and Shane Dawson videos. I closed my laptop and crawled under my covers even though it was only 7:30 I was worn out and ready to go to bed. I fell asleep wishing I was wrapped in Cameron's arms again ..