My Disappointing Diary

2-21-20

Hello there. I'm on the bus now. I didn't have time to do it earlier and I couldn't do it outside since it was super cold. Me and Diego were legit freezing pretty much. I got so cold that certain parts of my body like my ears started to hurt. Anyway I have to wash and blow-dry my hair when I get home since my sister messed it up. Lol off topic but we just passed by what looks like a bus farm😂. Anywho I found a new song by CG5 about Bendy and the Ink Machine. It's really cool and I think it came out about 3 weeks ago? Or something like that. Kinda sad that I didn't get to see Alex this morning but hopefully I'll see him at school. I don't know if we're still going to go to the Career Center. Probably not since it's 9:24 but anyway I hope we do so I can see him. Since that's like the only time I have with him. Oof we aren't going to the Career Center today. We're in the top part of the gym. And Alex still isn't here which makes me pretty sure he's just not gonna be here today at all. Oof this is hella tuff. Especially since I won't be able to see him at all this weekend. I'm pretty sure his parents either don't want me over or just don't like me now. Now I'm chilling on the bleachers with Jerry. Now I'm looking at memes with uhh...Tim. Now I'm chilling with Jordan and low-key we watching Nick since it's their class now. I'm in 4th period now. I've made a code for me and Alex so we can still talk about stuff and he won't get in trouble. I've got one to start off but if I can find a better one I'll just write it down too so he can choose which one he wants or if he wants to use one at all. I know I haven't written as much as I usually do but I'm just sad that Alex wasn't here today. Especially after what he told me yesterday. I don't think his parents know that me and Diego know. I told Diego yesterday on the bus home. We have like an hour in this class now so I'm gonna watch some speed paints or something. I'm now on the bus. Oof I was just rewatching GameBoyJones Madara rap. It's great. Anyway I'm showing Diego the song I found this morning.  He seems to like it. Now I'm showing him Haunted. Now I'm playing Body. I see a red maple tree and it's so pretty . I've always thought that those trees were pretty and dogwoods too. Now I'm playing Isaac's Insects. I don't think he's paying much attention to my music since he's playing his own. Now I'm showing him the opening and ending of The Promised Neverland. He seems to like the opening. We're picking up the middle school kids now. Now we're on the way to the first stop which isn't all that far from ours. Like we could walk there if we wanted to but we don't because why the heck would you a walk to a whole different stop? Me and Diego are talking about this great show Miraculous Ladybug. It's our stop now. Oof I'm home now. I need to get ready to wash my hair. I'm back from washing my hair. I'm listening to Map of the Soul:7 enhanced version on Spotify and let me tell you it's hella bomb. I'm listening to Inner Child now. And just as I write that it's over😂. Now I'm listening to Make It Right. Earlier I looked at the ON video and the oof was REAL. That's low-key why I got Spotify again. Now I barely have any space but it's totally ok. OH MY GOSH. Zero o'clock is so good I was hit with all the vocals and the beat is soooo calming and their voices are so smooth and like oOF. Oh and UGH is a whole BOPPP. I listened to it earlier. Moon just came on and I was just slapped in the face with Jin's amazing vocals. RESPECT IS A BOPP! I REPEAT RESPECT IS A WHOLE BOPPP. I-.... I just👌💅💣💜💜💜. That's what I have to say thanks for coming to my Teddy Talk✌️. I'm going to look through the other options for Alex to choose from. ON JUST CAME ON OH MY LORD SAVE MY SOUL👻✌️💅💜🖤💣💚🙃🤤👌. I really love it the beat is just  *chefs kiss*. And their voices are as amazing as always. You can feel the talent radiating off this album like oof sweetie. Ego came on and Hobi be out here making bops like  wow😫. Filter just came on and I'm loving the Latin vibes. Like wow Jimin is REALLY out here slapping like THIS✌️💜. I hope the code thing works so he doesn't get in trouble anymore. I don't like the fact that he's getting punished for just being a good friend. And I really don't like that they think restricting his dating choices will stop him forever. Like I'd assume when he moves out he'll start dating whoever he wants. Ughhh this is so freaking frustrating. Like why the heck would you try to separate us three years after we become friends? Is it because I'm more of a threat now? Ugh I want to think about it but I don't at the same time. I'm gonna text him and ask him why he wasn't here today. I'm just chilling listening to music. It's like 8:56 now and a whole Dragon Ball Cypher. It's so good. I'm gonna go ahead and post this so I can at least try to get him off my mind for a bit by singing a bit. So uhhh yeah byeee!✌️
- Angil