My Disappointing Diary

2-23-20

Oof it's 1:20 and I'm still up thinking about him. Anywho wassup. I'm thinking about him and listening to his playlist and petting Bella since she decided to sleep on my cover. And I swear I had to be dreaming about him cuz I was super close to falling asleep and then I woke up and automatically checked to see if he texted me back. And he did like whatt. I texted back but I'm not really worried about that. Oof I relate to this song so muchhh. It's 4U by PRETTYMUCH. Oof it's 👌💅. Ok gonna go read a bit then I'll probably come back with something random. It's like 2:55 now and uh as you can guess I'm still thinking about him. Oof I just can't get his adorable dorky self out of my head. No I'm gonna go ahead and say this now. Dear Alex whenever I show this to you don't freak out or think I'm obsessed with you or that I don't know I'm plotting to kill you? 😂 No idea where I was going with that but yeah. I swear that if you found this and I DIDN'T show you then expect me to yeet myself off a small ledge so I can at least break my leg. I mean it may look like I'm obsessed but uh it's not what it looks like I promise!😂. Anyway I'm writing this to show you later on in life so we can laugh together about how lovesick I was/am for you. How scared I was about what I was feeling for you. How much I love and appreciate and how damn much I miss you even though you leave for seconds. Ugh I hate it when I get all mushy but that's just what you do to me. Oof so yeah I hope you laugh at this and realize that I love you a lot. And I'm writing this also to
Oof gonna go to sleep now so since it's pretty much 5 in the morning. Oof woke up 7:58 so yeah I wasn't away long. But worth it because I was thinking of him and he's always worth it. Ugh there I go with that sappy stuff again. Oof just got a big bowl of cereal so I feel much better. I think I'm the only one up but eh that's normal because I usually wake up early regardless of how long ago I fell asleep. We're probably gonna go over to Mim's later tonight. Wonder what we're having for dinner? And I also hope Owen(my ex/Taylor's cousin) isn't gonna be there tonight but he probably will be. But I kinda don't care because we both pretty much ignore each other on the daily soooo🤷. And speaking of Owen. He moved tables Friday. Like drastic movement. Like from all the way down the stairs at the table near the vending machines to the top of the stairs at the table pretty much right in front of mine. I bet you I look stupid since I'm eating cereal, dancing horribly, and writing. But that's just me 🤷💅😂.  Oop gonna go read a book that just got updated. Oof forgot to mention that I think we're having Taylor's birthday dinner tonight bc I think it's today. But yeah right now she's making more wontons because Molly ate the rest last night. Oof just got barked at by Molly. But now she's trapped in the parents room so ha😂. Oop now we're on the couch watching desperate housewives. Ok so umm I might not write for a while. Oof ok so they said they're gonna order a CT scan for my face and they're probably gonna just clean my leg up and bandage it. And I just told Alex and oof his reaction bru 🤣😂. He just started asking all these questions and sounded worried about lil ol me🙃✌️💅😔. Oof I gotta get a tetanus shot, my right eye flushesd out, and get my leg cleaned up. Oof I HATE needles with a fiery passion. Ugh but I gotta get it done fast so I gotta be a big girl or else I'll have to be held down like last time. And that's not dun let me tell you. All this has happened and it's only 2:58. Like wow time is weird. Anyway I'll have to explain what happened to Alex when I get home because I have no internet connection at the moment. I've been listening to Destiny by Rustage ever since I got in the car because it's a whole BOP. Oof it's after I got my shot which took forever to get done because I was being a big baby 😔✌️😂. Lmao I legit almost fell off the bed when the nurse came at me with the needle🤣. I had to be held down and even then it was a struggle. She legit had to catch me off guard. I commend her because it didn't even hurt. I'm such a big baby 😔. I swear if me and Alex get married (shut up and let me dream) I bet he would make fun of me because he would probably have either hold me down or hold my hand if I don't get over my very irrational fear of needles when I get older. Well I'll be back when my phone charges since it's on 6%. I've been discharged and we're getting food. I can't wait to get home and maybe I'll get to get on call with Alex. Oof I wonder how people will react when I go to school tomorrow. I'm home now on my bed. I was just chilling and whatever when Taylor sent me this funny video of Owen and his mom, Kim, and I died laughing. But sorry for this not being as long. Hopefully tomorrow's will make up for this one🤷. So uhh yeah byee!
- Angil