My Disappointing Diary

2-26-20

Oof I was in my feels last night because Alex didn't call or text me even when he saw the message like 10 minutes after I sent it. Anyway I'm at me and Diego's spot waiting. Since I haven't seen him at all. And my eye swelling has gone down and I took my medicine correctly this morning and I put on my ointment too which doesn't hurt that goodness. Oh and my wisdom tooth on my left side is coming in so yeah. It hurts and gives me a certain taste in my mouth but anyway I'm currently in Alex's mom's car now. I'm not talking to anyone besides when I said good morning. I'm not gonna lie I was hurt when Alex didn't at least text back but maybe I'm overreacting and he was too busy to talk. Eh I'll get over it. Oof I don't think  I should gush about Alex so much since he has a chance of seeing these. But I sorta don't care. He'll either be fine or traumatized 😂🙃💅. I low-key canc't wait to see his documentary he said he's gonna start. He said he would show me at the end of the year. And yesterday when we were emailing he asked about the second thing I had to do(which is pretty much confessing) and asked was I gonna do it tomorrow (which is today now) and I panicked but calmed down and said no. We're in our schools parking lot. I'm now eating breakfast and Alex said his parents just don't like us being "too intimate". Whatever that means but anyway I'm outside waiting for the career center bus. I'm at our usual waiting spot and some random guy passesd by and came back to ask if I was ok. Bru he looked concerned for me🙃😫💅. Anyway I'm waiting for the usual people to come over. That would be of course Alex, Jerry, and Rivers. Well those are the original ones. I see Jerry standing in the grass but he just walked over. Now I'm looking for Alex but I don't see him. Oof we're on the bus now. Ok so I'm just gonna thank God for this day because Alex just took off his hoodie and oof he fine but anyway we talked about his stepdad being racist and his mom wishing he wasn't like that. I'm in 1st period and we made pizza but I'm kinda depressed at the moment so I didn't have any. When I went to the bathroom earlier I saw Alex in his class. He sits nearest to the door. I wanna go home and cry and not get out of bed. But I know that's not gonna happen. I hope my mood lightens up before I see Alex on the bus or I could just fake it. I don't like faking around him but I don't want him to worry about me. I mean it's not like I haven't before but I always felt bad after. I don't like lying to him either but sometimes I have to. I'm debating on whether I should go get my bookbag now or later? I don't want to get up right now but I'm gonna go get it. After my foot wakes up. Oof I'm listening to Mr. Brightside by The Killers. It a great song and I listen to it often but yeah. Ok gonna go get my bookbag now. I just drew a dog with Midoriya freckles. Oof also Alex has these cute freckles and wheeo. I'm ready to leave. I don't like the majority of the people in this class and my 3rd period. I'm pretty ok with everyone in my 4th though. I love my 4th period. It so chill and I have friends in there and yeah I mean I have friends in my other two blocks but eh. 4th block is superior. Anywho, I'm still in sad boo mode and it's close to time to go. Honestly I want some coffee really bad. Like I would ask Jordan but she only has money for this dinner thing she's going to tonight. Ugh I really want some coffee. If you couldn't tell I love coffee. It's 11:25 five minutes till we leave. I know this is random but I just want an old phone. Like the ones with the curly cords and they sit on the wall. Yeah those. They're so cool. I just like old stuff to be honest. I like old music and old clothes and stuff like that. No idea why but yeah. I'm on the bus now waiting for Alex. Now back to the old stuff. Alex is here now. I'm watching him play smash now. This HOE (Alex) called himself ugly again on purpose to make me mad and he succeeded. I hit him until he took it back. Oof I'm waiting in line for lunch. Oop Dakota talked to me. Oof Dakota is so cute and sweet but I'm like too nervous to even talk. Ok so I'm on the bus now talking to Diego about our day. Ok I'm home now. Me and Diego talked about murder and the zombie apocalypse 😂. Oof I'm hella tired from doing some of my homework so I'm gonna post this now so I don't forget. So uhh yeah byee!
- Angil