My Disappointing Diary

3-11-20

Well hello there. I woke up on time today! Well I woke up early but still. But now I have a 99.9% chance of catching a ride with Alex. And I haven't seen Diego in days so this'll be nice. Oh and uhh. I may or may not be confessing today. I'm only doing it to torture myself but I also just want to get it over with. Like what's the point of lying to him and pining over him? And as for last night I cried on and off for like 3 hours. And then I decided to write the letter to Alex. Confession aside today is coffee day!! I have 20 minutes till it's time to go and I'm bored so I'm gonna read and listen to music till whenever. Oof I'm at the spot now. I wanna burn the letter so bad. Mostly because I hope that if I burn that then my emotions will go with it. But I know it's not that simple. Anyway I'm just chilling watching out for Alex's mom's car. I just got am app that lets you make avatars and I'm gonna ask Alex if he wants me to make him which gives me a reason to stare without being weird. Well I'm gonna read till anything noteworthy happens. I'm in the car with everyone and I'm not listening to what's happening in the front. I'm gonna start on Alex's avatar. Oof I'm outside in the spot waiting for the career center bus. I'm drinking my beloved coffee. I'm happy but not really. Im still a bit sad from yesterday so hopefully I can get through the day without it getting worse. Jerry's here. On the bus now and I don't see Alex. Nevermind I see him waiting to get on. Alex has to sit in the seat behind me because that asshole is beside me. I'm ignoring pretty much everything even Alex. I'm angry. Oof ok now I'm in class and I'm big sad. I think Alex is mad at me because I didn't talk to him on the bus. But hopefully we'll have our seat back on the way back. I'm in class and it's almost time to go. We had a tornado drill and a fire drill. Me and my friends were being crackheads. I saw Alex and I wanted to say hi but I didn't. I'm gonna go work on his avatar. In third now. I'm gonna make some of my male OC's. I'm in 4th and it's pretty much time to go. I'm walking to the bus lot and me and Nick left the class early since we had a sub. Making Diego guess who my crush is. He keeps saying it can't be Alex. Ok now he knows and we're talking about it and stuff.  I've been home for a while but forgot to write. I'm doing homework but not really. I've decided to download a song about Nagisa from Assassination Classroom. Anywho I'm gonna go download it now. I'm getting my hair redone because I was tired of looking like a mess😂😂. I'm listening to Fortnite songs because they be dope bro. Like FabvL is really good at what he does and I love his stuff. Anyways so now I just need to tell Jordan that Diego knows now. I restarted Assassination Classroom (even though I haven't made it through the first episode 😂). I may not play Fortnite but these songs hit bru. Oh almost forgot but Alex said I'll probably be able to come back to church again next week. Hopefully he's right. I forgot to end this last night. So uhh yeah byee!
-Angil