How Did I End Up Here (BTS)

The Future

Chapter Twenty Eight

*Rap Monster's POV*

I was really worried for Lizzie. I mean, we were still were still together, I can't imagine not being with her, but lately it's like she's pushing me away. I want to spend more time with her once all the guys have gone to sleep, but she tells me to rest too, like she doesn't want to be around me.

Maybe it's the baby hormones? Pregnant women apparently have mood swings, maybe it's because of that? I really don't know. I'm just worried. She's a lot more quiet than before. When we found her, she was still happy despite everything she'd been through, but now it's like she's trapped again. Unable to escape like before. It's like her mood is what she should have been when she woke up, not trusting, wanting to be alone. But instead she let it go, didn't complain. Now, I look at her and I see fear on her face. 

I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm being pushed further away, and not only by her 7-month-pregnant stomach. I don't know what to do. 

"Hyung?" V called me. We were the only ones awake. Lizzie was asleep, when she thought I was asleep she went to bed too. 

"Yeah?" 

"Do you think Lizzie is alright?" 

"You've noticed too?"

"She seems a lot more... quieter. And less fun than before." 

"Yeah, I know," I sighed. "What can we do?" 

"I don't know. Should we tell manager hyung? It's probably just the pregnancy hormones, but she's not herself."

"Yeah, I think we should." I sighed again. 

"Alright hyung, night." 

"Night." 

I can't stop worrying about her. She tells me she's fine, and she forces a smile, but I see her from afar and she just looks... not all there I guess. 

Opening her door, I saw her sleeping soundly. She looked peaceful. I have to do something to cheer her up. It's my duty after all right? She'll protest and tell me to rest, but she's my girlfriend, and I don't want her feeling down. 

*Lizzie's POV*

I woke up in the night many times due to the baby kicking. 2 more months of this, and then I will get no sleep whatsoever. So I guess 3 hours is good right?

I think it's time to ask Manager Kang where I will go when the baby is born. I can't stay here, not with them having such a busy life. 

Once again, I'll be alone. I feel so isolated, am I doing it to myself? Well not exactly. Mei and Matty are always together and it's awkward to be around them. Minzy is always with Jin. And the rest of the guys are always on schedule or sleeping. 

And I'm just here, sort of drifting along. I think it would be better to be on my own. I wouldn't be such a burden anymore. 

As luck has it, Manager Kang was in the dorm when I woke up. 

"Good morning," he smiled. 

"Good morning," I smiled back. Ask him now. "When the baby is born, where will i go? I can't exactly stay here. And I'll be fine on my own somewhere." I said quietly. 

"Seriously?" Suga appeared. "You want to be on your own?" 

"I just don't want to be a burden anymore. I feel like, I'm not really needed." I said. Everyone was in the kitchen now. 

"Who said you were a burden?" Jungkook said. 

"You don't really have to say it. I can tell. I'm not really needed here, so I might as well just go."