My Cracking Heart

Ex 8

Hey. I've got some things on my mind. I pray you understand where I'm coming from. When you came back I thought I was gonna be one of the select few individuals on your priority list. I mean why wouldn't I think that I'm your lover aren't I?.  Shouldn't you wanna first see your lover first after a long time apart. Then the silence without an explanation as if I don't matter, as if I don't get worried too. I get worried, I do wonder where you go and whom has your attention. It's not a fun feeling to be left in the dark and given vague answers prior to another dark time again. I'm a strong individual and trying so hard to keep my cool but how do I do that well, when you're not showing me what I'm fighting for?. I waited for so many days as patient as ever just for you and what do I have to show for that. If something's going on and there's great hindrance could you at least make it a part of my knowledge because I can't guess that at all. I thought I was important to you but as of late I don't feel important. I feel like I'm just a title. I have been so lonely lately and I thought because you are my lover you'd come and feel up all that space. I thought you'd wanna chat for long hours and catch up on lost time but well. Lookie here I guess I'm an idiot for expecting too much. I now feel like I'm forcing this when love should never feel that way. Communication is key it's important especially in my case. With the value you hold in my life right now. I thought you'd be taking every little bit of my attention because your important like that. So what's this now? Why do I feel this way?. How do you feel? I don't even know imagine you're own lover doesn't know how you feel? Shouldn't I be the first to know my love? My apologies if any statement sounds like it's attacking you. (That is not my intention). My intention is to let you know how I feel. Now I ask you my love. How do you feel?

My tears are not worthless.