The rejected mate

I'm Crazy

The Rejected Mate

Chapter 9

Alec P.O.V

"Alpha, a wandering rouge was found he is in meeting room 5 sir." My pack warrior David advised me as he stepped out of my room and attended back to his duties.

I stared at the mirror at my lifeless body. I have lost more than 30 pounds the past month. A grueling smile spread my lips. I don't need to eat anyways. I lost my appetite since the moment I looked in the mirror.

I was a mess. So bad of a mess that until now did I realize how bad the situation was. I literally dragged my body out my room door and down the stairs of my house. I can't return to the pack house anymore. She's always there. Like the voices that haven't left my head.

I pulled the door to my house open and looked down while walking. My father had finally given up his title as Alpha about two weeks ago. I tried so hard to at least stand up to the task but I keep falling straight on my face. I was falling so much I grew tired of trying to lift myself up anymore.

"Oh God look at him Bryce. He looks devestated."

"Mommy. He looks like a zombie."

"He's been like that since Kendall keft the pack."

"Poor kid. Probably did something he totally regrets now."

Their right you know that's the way you are seen through the eyes of your pack members. Wow. You are a disgrace. Just kill yourself. The voice nagged.

"Stop it." I mumbled to myslef. Tugging my hair between my fingers. I had stopped walking and now just heavily breathing and talking to myself.

If you want me to stop then kill yourself. I'll watch and leave you at peace. Just do it. It continued ignoring the fact that it was giving me a headache.

"Shut up." I said louder this time. Pack members had stopped to stare at me with their peircing glares. I pulled my hair even harder and fell to the ground.

Pathetic should be your new name because thats exactly what you are Alec. A pathetic Loser who can't even take care of his pack. Your sister is Alpha because of your pathetic ass. I growled and began to hit my head against my fists.

"Enough! Stop it! Shut up!" I roared. Mothers pulled ther children away from me and others just stared in utter confusion.

"I refuse to accept that he is what an Alpha is supposed to be like." A man shouted. I stomped my way over to him and stared at his terrified eyes. With a swift movement, I had cracked his neck which killed him instantly.

I stood over his lifeless body and watched my pack members wide, sad, and scared eyes. Out of the corner of my eyes I saw my mum, dad, and my little cousin. He stared at me with huge green eyes. I tried walking towards him but he screamed and ran over to my mum's legs.

He began sobbing and screaming how he didn't want to die. My dad looked at me with disapproving eyes. What hurt most was the tears in my mums eyes and her comment before leaving me outside.

"Where did I go wrong?" She whispered before running after my dad with my cousin in her hands. Everyone else scattered and grumbled within themselves.

Where did she go wrong? As long as I remember you were raised properly but you just screwed it up. I couldn't argue with it anymore. It was all true. As hard as I tried to deny it. The voice was right.

I kicked a stone and stared at my shaky and sweaty hands. I'm terrified of myself. I can't keep living like this.

Then don't live.

I sighed and closed my eyes. I could try to drown myself. I obviously don't have the guts to bring the blade to my throat. A tear dropped from my eyes which I furiously wiped and looked above at the setting sky.

"Help me." I whispered to the Moon Goddess.

Slowly and painfully I walked back to my house. I collapsed on the cold marble floor and rolled to my sides and thought about how much better I would be if she was still here.

A brown envelope under the couch caught my eyes. I extended my arm under the couch and grabbed the envelope. In neat letters my name was placed on the front.

I unwrapped the letter to reveal a birthday card. I slowly opened the card and read the note on the left side of the chessy card.

Alec,

Happy birthday! Mum and Dad bought the card and told me to write something nice on it for you so here I am. Anyways I hope you have the best birthday ever because I know that you are the best guy ever. :) Now don't get too old now because you are only one year older than me mister.

xoxxo Kendall.

My heart clenched at the mere thought of her. Always she had sent me a birthday card, every single year. But I never even bothered to open half of them. How cruel am I? A picture was on the side of the card of a seven year old Kendall and I. Her amber eyes were gleaming with amusement as she smiled a goofy grin with a drawn mustache on her cheeks. She was staring at me while I posed for the picture.

Of course I had not even the slightest clue that the blonde girl with pigtails and purple tanktop had liked me at all. But her eyes told the whole story especially how she was looking at me. In awe and in admiration. The next photo was taken a couple years later. I was 12 and she was 11.

Being a part of the Beta family she was close to my family since we were the Alpha family. Her platinum blonde hair was wavy and looked natural placed above her shoulders. She blushed and laughed while I hugged her for the picture.

How I wish I could just once wrap my hands around her small body, smell the hypnotizing scent that she brought everywhere, and run my hands through her hair and plead for her to take me back. That I had made the biggest and worst mistake in my life. But I had greedily snatched the opportunity and ripped it into tiny pieces before I realized how bad I needed it.

Do it. Just get it over with Alec.

"Okay." I whispered.