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Things were diffrent now.I could feel it the moment I walked in to my house yesterday. I felt that awkward silence and memorys I didn't want to bring up swarm around me. I invisioned her laugh. Her smile I always took for granted. All those birthday cards I threw away because I assumed that another card would be sent to me the next year. I opened my eye lids slowly. I was in my room. My gray conferter pilled ontop of me and my sheets strewn on the floor. I sighed and closed my eye lids again. The house was silent. I heard the birds singing. Why did they have to sing at a time like this? Their noise was cheerful and not sad. The day was not gray, but sunny. This summer was the worst ever. I would always be remembered of the boy of the dead girl.
My mother last night said I didn't have to go to school this fall. I would be home schooled and that would help me as she put it. I fell into a dark hole as someone would put it. Losing her was the biggest and saddness thing in the world. I didn't know what to do. I hated myself everyday because of it. I hated it so much. I opened my eyes again and relized only a few minutes had passed. I sighed and got out of bed. The cold air nipped at my expossed skin. I shivered at the cool air. I rolled my neck and got out of bed. I pulled on sweatpants and a T-shirt and went outside on this beautiful yet sad day. I walked to my backyard. Where our tree stood. I remember as kids we used to climb it and we would laugh there.
We had plans of building a tree house, but we never did and now we never could. I would miss her hair that always smelled like tropical fruit. Her smile and laugh. Just my luck, the person I loved I could never have. Then I heard her giggles. She was standing right in front of me. "Casper..... Don't ever let our friendshipo break apart... Promise me."
"Ashlyn?" I said. She began to fade away.
"Keep holding on." She said.
"I will always." I said tears comming to my eyes. And with that she was gone. I was there left alone. "Ashlyn...." I heard someone comming up from behind me. I turned aroung to find Evan. Evan, Ashlyns older brother.
"Hello, Casper." He said. I stared at him. His eyes were blood shot and dark circles were around his eyes. He looked tired and exhausted. Just like I was.
"Hey Evan." I said to him.
"Did you love her?" Evan asked, almost desperatly.
"Who? Your sister?" I said not wanting to say her beautiful name.
"Yes.....," He said and after a pause "Ashlyn"
"I do." I said. It was the truth I still ove her. It would take more then a pretty face and a life time to forget Ashlyn and move on.
"She would want you to move on, you know." Evan said. My breath hitched. He was telling me to move on?
"Why?" I asked.
"Because she would want you to be happy." He said not looking at me.
"I dont want to move on. I will NEVER move on." I said getting annoyed.
"Casper!" His voice angry. " I miss her too! Can't you see that! She loved you so much! She cried everyday when you were with the Heather Chick! But you never saw it before she was taken and moving on! You never saw it! you don't have a right to be mad! If you want to be mad, Go yell at Derricks grave!" Evan said. His face was beat red and I shrunk back. Tears were in his eyes. "I miss her more then anyone... more then you... my parents... everyone...." He said. With that he just left. He didn't say anything else. He just walked away. I was stunned.
Evan had never once in my life yelled at me. Thing I was most shocked was about Ashlyn. She cried when I was with Heather? I knew something was up then. I was so blind that I couldn't see that she was hurt. God, I was the worst friend in the universe.
I sighed and went back inside. Today was not my day and it never was. I wish that I would wake up and Ashlyn and Eli would be there.
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