I hate U, I love U

Chapter One

Dahyun's POV:

This is the hardest decision that I will ever make.

I don't know if I will regret it, but there's no other way.

It's now or never.

It's been 10 years. Now is the right time to finally make this decision.

I take a deep breath, careful not to make any unnecessary noise as I step out of room.

It's pitch black in our whole house. Everyone's sleeping knowing that it's already 12 midnight.

I feel nervous knowing that my brother's room is just beside mine. I silently pray that he's sound asleep, or else I'm doomed.

I successfully manage to get pass through his room. Next is my parents'.

I don't understand why my room is at the very end of this hallway. It's just so unfair.

I know that they're already sleeping. I can hear my father snoring already.

But my mom...

She's a light sleeper.

And...

My heart suddenly feels heavy thinking about her.

I blink my eyes, trying not form any tears.

I need to at least see her.

I slowly open the door of their bedroom with a heavy heart.

Father's heavily sleeping.

My mom is sleeping too. But she looks in pain.

It's because she's been constantly working nonstop these past few weeks.

Sometimes she and dad will be gone for days. I ask my brother where they are working so I can at least visit them after school but he's always stopping me, telling me that I'll be bothersome. He never tells me where they work, he always change the topic and ends up nagging at me.

My mom looks pale. She looks really tired.

I want to hold her hand, but I'm afraid that I might wake her up and interrupt her rest.

"Mom, I'm sorry," I whispered. "Please don't hate me. Just let me see him."

Before I close the door, I said for the last time, "I'll be back, I promise."

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I estimated the time I will arrive in Seoul. I'll be there at around 6 in the morning.

I make sure to bring enough clothes and extra money.

Wondering where I can stay over? Well, I manage to befriend someone who lives in Seoul. Her name is Park Jihyo. She once visited our hometown Daegu and became one of my grandmother's friendly customer on her flower shop. I was there when she visited the shop. She's so friendly and very beautiful. I like the way she talks about Seoul and how's her life there. She said that she has an older brother. I forgot his real name, she calls him mochi. It sounds weird, but who cares? My nickname is dubu, though.

Anyways, we exchange numbers. We eventually became really close friends. She always updates me with her whereabouts in Seoul. How she hates her school, which is an all-girls school, how she wish her parents will finally allow her to transfer to her brother's school.

One time, we talked about our crushes. She was so giddy talking about her crush, Kang Daniel. He is their neighbor. I really have nothing to tell her, because I never felt love. I mean, I felt it, I love my family. But that kind of love? I don't know.