Rosie

Chapter 14 - Sam

 I've been sitting on my bed staring at the wall in front of me since I came back home after class. I put on a movie on Netflix but after ten minutes I got to distracted to watch. This has been my daily routine for the last few days. I snooze my alarm too many times in the morning which causes me to almost be late for my first class of the day. I spend lunch break with my teammates including Charles, I support Charles just so I'm not alone with my thoughts. At the end of the day after class, I go straight to basketball practice and after that back to my dorm room to watch a movie. I end up getting distracted by my own thoughts and one movie plays after another and so on and on. I end up falling asleep way too late and the next morning I snooze my alarm again.

Those daily events making my life an infinite circle of repetition. I feel like I'm slowly descending into depression. No never mind let that go that is an exaggeration. And it is disrespectful to the people who really are suffering from depression. It's just that I'm so not used to feel all kinds of feelings that right now I don't really know what to do with them.

I hear Leo walk in through the front door. I hear footsteps the fridge opening and closing again, I hear footsteps again next I see the bedroom door opening. Leo comes in holding two bottles of water. He throws me one, I miss it and it rolls under my bed. I sigh deeply and I get up to go look for it.

"Did you even get out of this room today?" Leo asks when I get down on my knees to look under my bed.

I struggle to get the bottle out from under the bed because it is out of my reach "I did"

"You sure?" I decide to just lay flat on my belly to catch it.

I finally succeed in grabbing it, with the bottle also comes a handful of dust. "Yes, I'm sure, Leo?".

"Okay" I lay back down on my bed this time staring at the ceiling. "So, what exactly did you do?"

"I went to class, every class of the day, and after that, I came back here to watch a movie" I tilt my head up to look at him "and no worries dad I didn't miss lunch".

He just laughs "What movie are you watching".

I throw my head back down in despair "I don't know".

We both stay silent for a while. I slowly doze off into light sleep when a pillow hits me right in the face. I pick it up and try to throw it back again a Leo. I miss phenomenally. Leo just laughs again.

"Dude, you need to get your shit together" he sits up straight on his bed putting the pillow in his bed again. He looks at me.

I just shake my head "You have no idea".

"You still didn't go to see Rosie"

"No" I almost went to see her a few times but every time I managed to wait so long that I had somewhere else to be

"You now she leaves today right?"

"I do, so what?"

"So, she is leaving for two weeks, you are clearly messed up over everything that happened" I sit up a little bit to show him my eye role, he just sends me the dad look lifting up one eyebrow "just go and try to fix things" he stands up taking books out of his bag and putting new ones in, he turns to me "for all of our sakes".

"Where are you going" I inquire.

"The library. I'm meeting up with someone" he throws his bag over his shoulder and walks out of the room.

I yell after him "Who?". I hear the front door close without an answer to my question. I sink deeper into my bed.

Should I go to her room? For all, I know she already left. She never mentioned how late she is leaving. I guessed that was supposed to come up during a conversation in the week before she leaves. Since we haven't really been talking for over a week, I have no idea how late she is leaving. I should have asked Leo.