Every time.

It's beautiful

                                      Alex's pov

I am awoken by the sound of Kara's deep snoring, I would usually be kinda annoyed, but given the fact that she hasn't slept in months I'm kinda relieved. After contemplating on whether I should get up or not, I decide that I should probably make something for her to eat, since she hasn't eaten anything in the last couple of hours. After searching for ingredients I settle on making pasta, one of Kara's favorites, in an attempt to at least put a smile on her face.

After finishing up, I find myself wandering an apartment that was once filled with so much light, joy, and happiness, nowadays it just seems so... dark, lonely, and cold.....and as i'm looking around Kara's room, I can't help but notice a few boxes laying all around Kara's room. As I look closer I notice several shirts and aprons neatly folded in a box near a drawer...Mon-els drawer.

"I couldn't stand the sight of seeing his stuff any laying around any longer" Kara's tired voice rang though the room startling me.

"What...what were you planning on doing with it?" I ask questioning her decision.

"I don't know....it was just a rash decision...that I now regret" she says while tracing her hands over one of the boxes.

"What caused you to regret it?" I asked becoming more intrigued in what she was finally telling me.

Instead of answering me, she makes her way to Mon-els drawer, opens it, and hands me a paper.

"Just-just read it" she says before taking a deep breath, and sitting on her bed waiting for me to unfold the paper in my hands.

"I've always wandered-" I began but quickly get cut off.

"Not-not out loud.....please" she says in a shattering voice barely above a whisper.

"Okay..."

I can't help but tear up while reading the letter, which was so pure and captivating...god he really was a romantic bastard!

"I-....I don't even know what to say"

"Theirs nothing to say...he's gone....and theirs nothing I can do about it" she says while wiping away the tears that where now falling down her face.

"I'm so sorry" I say while wiping away my own tears.

"You have nothing to be sorry for....it's not your fault"

"It isn't yours either! And I'm gonna keep telling you that until you believe me! I say while looking into her clouded eyes, which used to shine so bright, and beautifully...but nowadays they just seem so dark and weary. "Hey...why don't we unpack his things....I can tell that seeing all his things packed away hasn't really helped you in the way you thought it would....and than maybe later we can have dinner together?" I nervously ask her hoping that she'll say yes.

"Okay" she hesitantly says before sniffling, and wiping more tears off her face.

Happy with her response I squeeze her hands gently, and give her a quick kiss on the forehead. "Okay why don't we start with that box over there?" I say while pointing to the box near her bathroom.

Kara only nods as her response, and moves to the box to begin unpacking Mon-els belongings.

About an hour later we have unpacked all the boxes, well all except for one. "I got this one" I say before opening the box and putting his belongings back into the drawer "all done" I say before closing his drawer, and sitting on top of Kara's bed. "How are you feeling?" I can't help, but ask, as she stares at the empty boxes stacked on the floor.