Every time.

Anytime

                                     Kara's pov

"I told you drooled" I say plastering a cheeky smile on my face.

Ever since I came clean to Mon-el the other day, I've been spending everyday with him in the training room, telling him about everything we went through together, and todays topic was our first kiss.

"No way!" Mon-el reply's, while letting a small fit of laughter. "I have never drooled a single day in my life!" Mon-el remarks in a defensive, yet playful tone.

"Sure you have!" I say letting out a laugh of my own. "Don't you remember tha-"I quickly cut myself off remembering the fact that he can't seem to remember anything that happened during his time here. "Never mind.." I say as I quickly try to disregard the memory that involved Mon-el, drool, and Eliza's glazed carrots.

"...I'm sorry..." Mon-el says, in a hush sincere tone.

"For what?" I ask

"...For not remembering someone as important as you" Mon-el says, causing me a blush to creep on my cheeks "...for not remembering us..." Mon-el adds softly, as disappointment begins to cloud his eyes.

"Hey..." I say, causing him to look me in the eye. "None of this is your fault...you've always been so hard on yourself about things that you're not in control of...but sometimes we've just got to accept the fact that we can't control everything, no matter how much we might want to." I finish up hoping that my words made him feel a little less disappointed in himself.

"...I know that, but I just...I hate feeling so...useless..." Mon-el says in a small, pained voice.

"You were never useless" I say trying to reason with him, but he doesn't seem to want to comply.

"Tell that to my parents...or even my planet...everyone secretly resented me anyways..." Mon-el say, as he moves his gaze to the ground.

"Mon-" I start.

"Even I resented me..." Mon-el says quietly, as a tear begins to slide down his cheek.

"Mon-el..." I start again, wanting him to look up at me, but he doesn't, so I move from my spot from on the bench, and move to the floor so I can crouch down in front of his legs, but even than he still manages to avoid my gaze. "...you were born and raised on a  toxic and cruel plant that knew nothing about freedom, nothing about hope, and nothing about love...and I'm not gonna lie, when I first got to know you I thought you were thoughtless, and selfish...but you kept proving me wrong..." I say before pausing to  take in his reaction, which seems to be unreadable at the moment since he still isn't making eye contact. "Because even though you were born and raised somewhere as vile as Daxam, you still managed to become someone so selfless and incredible...you became the man I hoped and knew you could be...you became the man that I admire so much..." I say softly, trying once again to capture his reaction, and this time I got lucky, because he finally looked up at me for a brief second with an sincere look in his eye. "You've changed Mon-el...you've grown." I say, as I move my right hand up to to his forearm to give it a light squeeze, acts like these made him feel grounded in stressful situations.

"...I guess I owe that all to you...after all you are the one that changed me." Mon-el says in husky, tear stained voice.

"I didn't change you Mon-el...sure I might have inspired you, but you're the one that made the decision to change." I remark softly.

"Thank you" Mon-el says, fixing his gaze onto mine.

"For?..."I ask.

"Everything" Mon-el says softly.