Every time.

I promise I won't judge

Kara's pov

"The EEG scanner picked up new traces of old neurons!" Alex remarks, eyeing the EEG monitor. Mon-El and I—mostly me—decided to go to the DEO, just to make sure his brain is reacting to the treatment correctly.

"So the formulas working?" I ask, standing on the edge of the DEO stretcher which Mon-El is currently seated on.

"Yeah, and faster than I would've ever expected" Alex confirms, turning around to remove the EEG scanners from Mon-EL's temple. "Are your headaches getting any better?" Alex ask Mon-El.

"No, they actually increase profoundly when a memory back" Mon-El declares, causing me to squint my eyes with confusion. He hasn't mentioned any headaches.

"Well, I'll see what I can do about that" Alex states, smiling softly.

"Thanks" Mon-El replies, returning a smile of his own. Wow things really have changed since he first  crash-landed here.

"Well I think this momentous occasion, calls for a celebration!" Winn remarks enthusiastically, from the corner of the medbay. "What do say bud? You feel like grabbing a drink?" Winn ask, in his usual upbeat singsong tone.

"I'd live too, but alcohol doesn't really affect me, and I can never find a decent bar that can actually live up to my standards" Mon-El states, moving his gaze to me in an confused manner before turning back to me.

"I have a feeling this one will" Winn declares, moving towards Mon-El and basically shoving him out the door.

"You guys coming?" Winn ask, directing his attention to me and Alex.

"Um, I think I'll just get started on that headache remedy for Mon-El" Alex states, causing Winn to pout.

"And what about you girl of steel?" Winn ask.

"Um yeah, I'll be right there in a sec, don't wait up on me" I say, causing Winn's smile to return, before he has exits the medbay and directs Mon-El towards the main exit.

"What is it?" Alex ask, as she removes her stethoscope from collar of her neck, before moving to the stretcher to sit.

"Nothing" I affirm.

"If it was nothing than why'd to stay behind?" Alex ask, dragging her gaze up to me to me, giving me her knowing look.

"It's just..." I start as I cave in, and try to piece together the words swirling in my mind.

"Sit" Alex orders, patting the empty space beside her. Since there's no debate in her tone I do ask she says. "What's wrong?"

"I thought I'd be more prepared..."

"Do you wanna elaborate on that?" Alex ask, a confused look spread across her face.

"...when I got off from work, I found Mon-El on the floor, just balling his eyes out...and—I didn't know what to do" I state recalling the events that happened less the an hour ago. "—and it's not like I haven't seen him like that before, because I have...but it doesn't get any easier" I add remembering all the times I've seen Mon-El in a similar state. The first being when he told me he loved me. The second time being when I faced a near death encounter after getting shot in a fantasy musical world, and the third being the day I had to seed led in the air causing him to have to leave. And in all three of these situations I felt powerless to help...powerless to stop his pain, and if I couldn't help him in those situations what am I supposed to do when he his to relive them?

"I take it that it wasn't a good memory that he got back" Alex affirms.

"No it wasn't..." I declare sighing, not wanting to get into those upsetting details.