Every time.

We'll figure something out

                                   Mon-els pov

"So, have you been noticing any recent symptoms?" Alex ask, as she begins to place two EEG scanners on  my temple.

This is my first time meeting up with Alex since I've taken the remedy that Barry has given me. J'onn thought it would be best if I had checkups with Alex at least twice a week to make sure everything was working as it should...that is if this works at all.

"I've been getting these headaches, but they've been kinda on and off" I reply, as she begins to removes both scanners from the sides of my head.

"Okay, well the scans haven't shown any changes, so I guess you're good to go"

"Okay, well I guess I'll see you again Thursday" I state, smiling softly at Alex, as I move towards the door.

"Mon-el wait!" Alex says abruptly, causing me to turn back around to face her. "What's going on between you and Kara?" Alex questions.

"Nothing...I'm just giving her some space" I remark truthfully, hoping that Alex will just let this slide...but she doesn't.

"She hasn't stepped foot in your dorm for three days! And you even stopped volunteering to help her out on missions!" Alex remarks, 'well I guess she observed the awkward tension between me and Kara' I think to myself before sighing softly.

"Things have been...different since we came back from Earth-1...and it's all my fault" I whisper rather to myself than Alex, causing her to call me back onto the bed that I was previously sitting on. "I told her I had feelings for her" I state smoothly, taking in Alex's bewildered reaction. "On daxam emotions practically didn't exist...we'd numb our selves of anything emotional, and just go on with our day...but I guess things work differently here on Earth...and if I'm being honest with myself these feelings are terrifying, and while I'm try to figure them all out, she keeps pushing me away"

Alex sighs softly as she moves to sit next to me. "That's what she does, when things get too overwhelming or uncomfortable with someone she cares about...she does what she thinks is best gives them space" Alex says nonchalantly. "But what she doesn't know is that often times we don't need space...we just need someone to talk too" Alex adds as she turns her gaze towards me.

"I can't risk making things worse Alex"  I retort, keeping my eyes trained on the floor.

"She doesn't blame you Mon-el, she's just scared!" Alex states.

"Of my feelings for her?" I ask, now turning my gaze to Alex.

"Of her feelings for you....when you came back with your memories gone, something inside of her just shut off...she's already spent seven months in hell...but this" Alex stops to point between me and the EEG scanners lying on the mattress "this shattered her"

"...she doesn't deserve any of this" I mumble softly, trying to keep my tears at bay.

"No...no she doesn't" Alex says shaking her hand in agreement, " but when she put on that cape she knew her life wouldn't be as simple as it once was, but that didn't matter to her...what mattered was that she wanted to help make the world a better place...even if that meant that sacrificing her happiness...that's just who she is...she has the biggest heart when it comes to others, but when it comes to her..."

"She doesn't treat herself with the same compassion" I say finishing her statement.

In the month that I've been back I've already noticed how Kara is always quick to apologize for things she shouldn't even be sorry about, and they way she victimizes herself in any situation where someone gets there feelings hurt.