Every time.

You know i'd never want to leave you, right?

Kara's pov

"I've scanned the entire city Kara, but his tracker isn't showing up on my radar." Winn voices through my cell phone. Mon-Els been gone since 4am and that was seven hours ago. I thought it'd be a good idea to give him some space but as the hours tick by I find myself more worried, and concerned. And the fact that I haven't slept since he's left isn't really helping with my current state of mind. "I'm gonna keep scanning the city, if I find something I'll call you, okay?" Winn exclaims reassuringly.

"Okay. Thank you Winn." I remark quietly. And although I am very thankful for his help my voice kinda comes off a stressed and I guess Winn can sense that.

"We'll find him Kara." He states calmly, his voice laced with sympathy and reassurance. But that really doesn't do anything to calm my nerves.

"I really hope so." I mumble before saying a quick goodbye and hanging up the phone. As soon as the beep sounded—indicating the call ended—I set my phone on the dining room table, and rest my head in my hands.

A million questions are running through my mind right now. Is he okay? Why isn't his tracker working? Why hasn't he called?...It's not like him to leave for so long without calling to let me know that he's okay. So that just makes me think that something bad happened to him or—my frantic thoughts are cut short when my phone starts vibrating against the wooden table. And to my disappoint it's Alex not Winn—well not disappoint per say...it's just that Alex doesn't really know how to work a scanner.

"Hello" I greet, as I answer the call.

"Hey Kara!" Alex's voice booms through the speakers, her upbeat tone surprising me a bit, since she was so emotionally drained for the past couple of days. "I saw that you called me earlier, is everything okay? You called kinda early." Alex ask her upbeat tone turning into a more concerned one. Which is understandable because I did call her at 6:00am.

"No." I remark honestly. "Mon-Els been gone for hours, and Winn can't find him on the monitors, and I've scanned the city at least 9 times, but—"

"Wait, Kara slow down. You're speaking in tongues." Alex interrupts quickly. "What happened with Mon-El?"

"He left hours ago, and Winn and I can't find him." I repeat, after releasing a deep breath that I didn't even realize I was holding in.

"That's not like him. Why'd he leave?" Alex ask.

"Because I'm an idiot! I told him something that I knew he wouldn't react to well, and now because of me he's gone!" I state, sounding a bit angry. Although not at Alex, but myself. How could I have been so stupid?! He was already emotionally unstable by the time I told him, but now I think I broke him. And it's not that I regret telling him because I don't, I just regret telling him when I knew he wouldn't react well.

"Hey. Hey calm down." Alex's voice rings through the speakers in an attempt to calm me down. It doesn't work.

"How am I supposed to be calm Alex?! He's been gone for seven hours! Seven long excruciating hours! And I don't where he is or what happened to him!" I exclaim loudly, my voice cracking mid sentence. "This is all my fault" I add, my voice dropping in volume, as tears begin to cling to my eyes. I've been telling myself to hold them in all morning, because crying means that I've already lost hope...which is ridiculous because I'm usually the most optimistic person I know—that being because I literally stand as a figure of hope—but this entire situation is hitting too close to home. After dealing with the after math of not being with him for seven months, having to deal with not knowing where he is for several hours is...it's scary.