ᴜɴsᴛᴏᴘᴘᴀʙʟᴇ [•JENO•]

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It's been 7 hours since the boys came back, most of them were in their rooms. While Haechan, Jaemin, Yuta were in the medic rooms. Still being watched over by the medics 

Taeyong wanted to let the members rest so that we can search for Jeno. As fast as possible, I already tried to find him, and get his current location. But no luck, it was as if Jeno wasn't having a location tracker on his body. They must've found it.

I was thinking, thinking of a way how to get him back home. But a knock on my door interrupted my thoughts. I raised my head, looking at the door.

"It's open" my voice was raspy and sounded dry.

The one who knocked on my door was Taeyong, he came in with a bottle of water. Handing it to me, before sitting down on the bed next to my spread out body

"I need your help," he said, looking at me. I opened the bottle he gave me. Gulping down the water, only now noticing how dry my throat was

"For what"

"To find Jeno" I sat up, surprised that he came to me

"I will help you," I said, happy that I have the chance to find him

"Alright, Jeno is smart so we will see if something happens today. We will start tomorrow evening, don't tell others. I want them to rest. Okay" I nodded my head, he gave me a smile. Standing up from my bed, patting my head. Leaving my room right after

To he honest I couldn't wait till tomorrow, so I took the computer that I took from the living room. Searching every corner of the internet, police reports. But I couldn't find much.

JYP.

They were probably hiding him somewhere safe, where they think no one will find him.

I searched for buildings, buildings that belonged to JYP. But the only location I could find was the one we were not long ago fighting against them

Stray Kids are nothing without JYP.
And only if we knew that they are working under the unit, I would never allow the boys to go there alone.

And now, now we have 5 hurt members. One is missing, and the others are feeling down.

It all went downhill.

I closed my computer, making myself crazy with all that.

It was night time, and no one was walking around the house

I made my way out of the room, tiptoeing in the dark, to Jeno's room.

I opened the door, hoping to see him there. Hoping he would stare at me with his cold stare, and that I would talk to him. But it wasn't a dream, it was the reality. It was true that he was not here, and that he might be in pain right now

I closed the door after myself, going to his closet, taking a sweater out. Changing into it, and climbing under the bed covers. It felt like him, cold but comfortable. It smelled after his shampoo and perfume he is sometimes wearing.

But it felt empty, and cold no warmth. No feeling

"I hope you're fine" I whispered, hoping that they aren't hurting him. And that he will be home again.

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I couldn't sleep for a long time, hugging the pillow and pulling the blanket close to my body.

The sleep took over me around 3 a.m

And I fell into dreamless darkness....making me forget all this for a while.

The next morning I woke up, and he was on my mind the second after.

He's the last thought and the first...

What has happened to me?

I took the sweater off, pulling the shirt I had on yesterday. Not caring to make the bed, walking out of the room. The house was silent, unusual....most of the time the dreamies are running around. The older members talking about different stuff, and Kun shouting after them, to clean up.

And Jeno....he was on the couch. Doing some stuff that no one understands. Besides me.

I walked down the stairs, Kun hasn't cooked breakfast. Only Hendery and Xiaojun were in the kitchen, drinking water. Not talking or looking at each other. I just passed them, taking a bottle of water myself and proceeding the way to the living room

The couch was empty, the games were on the floor. And Jeno's computer was on the table.

The next place I was going to, was Tyong's office. He was there, sleeping on the table. His glasses hanging on the tip of his nose, his hair a mess. And papers all around him.

I let out a breath, taking his glasses off. And placing the blanket that was on the sofa over him

"Thanks for capturing me" I whispered, leaving the office soon after. Going to my cousins now.

I entered the office, Jaehyun was sitting on his chair. Staring into space.

All of them were lost and down making me feel miserable

"Jae" I called him, he got startled looking at me

"Hey" only by his 'hey' I could hear the madness and sadness in his voice

I know that Jeno and Jaemin are very close to him and having Jaemin hurt and Jeno missing must be hard on him.

"How are you," I asked even if I knew the answer. He shrugged, looking at the wall again. There was the picture of all 21 boys hanging, they all smiling. Even Hendery and XiaoJun. They all looked happy....even Jeno.

He wasn't smiling but his eyes were different, they weren't 'black' they had a color a warmth in them

Making me miss him even more

"You miss him, don't you" I looked at him surprised "I-am just worried" He chuckled not buying the lie

"Yeah, and that's the reason you slept in his bed last night. In his sweater. While squeezing the shit out of his blanket and pillow" He smiled, making me blush. It's true I missed him

"Okay, you got me. I'm in love with a living ice-cube" I groaned, sitting on the sofa.

"Well, Jeno is complicated. I've never seen him smile, never saw him get excited or cry. It's like he's programmed. But deep down, he feels it. He feels the things we feel. Sadness, fear, happiness, confusion but we are showing it. Everyone differently, but he....he's pushing it away. Not allowing himself to feel" I listened to my cousin's words, feeling my heartbeat increase.

"I'm scared"

"Of what"

"Loving him, or letting someone love me"