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Starving.(Naegami)

[TRIGGER WARNING: contains themes of anorexia, self hate, cursing, depression, child abuse? This fic got angsty too quick sorry.]

Naegi layed on his side, he was exceptionally tired. He ran his dainty cold fingers over the sheets of his bed. For being a killing game the rooms sure were nice. 

He looked up blankly at the ceiling and moved his tongue across his teeth. His mouth was dry arrid and baren. He was in pain and he felt completley weak. He began to feel stabbing chest pain.

But he didn't even flinch when he felt the tight pain in his chest.

He knew it was his fault.

Naegi had been starving himself for 3 days now and his body didn't quite like that. He deprived himself of the nutrients and calories he needed.

Not without a purpose, Naegi hated his body. No scratch that- he hated all of his features. He wasn't attractive in the slightest, he felt utterly disgusted with himself. He felt useless in general  really.

It had 3 days after the Killing Games 3rd trial. Celestia Ludenburg being found guilty from the murder of two of their classmates. 2 of Naegi's friends. All out of greed and ridiculous unachievable dream. He watched in horror as the Ultimate Gambler was crushed to death by a firetruck. With a sickening crunk and in the blink of an eye. The life known as Celeste Ludenburg, a girl shrouded in lies, was no more

For some reason he blamed himself for not doing more to prevent it.

He felt so bland in a killing game full of such appealing, alluring, desirable people. He felt so inferior and he hated it. He didn't even have a "real" or impressive talent. In his mind he was only a waste of space. 

Maybe if he starved himself he would at least have an attractive body. He would still be a useless human being but at least he would be fuckable. A dry tired smile maybe it's way to his face.

No one checked up on him or even suspected him of starving himself. He didn't know if it made him happy or even more upset. Really happy that he hadn't been caught. Yet, this only assured him that his disgusting presence wasn't wanted. So much so that no one even noticed his insignificant disappearance. Not even Kirigiri. No one cared and he kinda liked that.

No one except Bykuya.

Despite the fact that he had completely ignored everyone and felt them all to be facetious and/or insufferable, Naegi was an exception.

He couldn't even place a finger on why he felt himself so drawn to Naegi.

Obviously the prodigy was gay but that wasn't it.

Maybe it was Naegi's kindness and how passionate he was about helping others.

Or how his gorgeous hazel eyes filled with joy when he made someone smile.

Or the boys willingness to do anything for anyone. To waste his time and bend over backwards to help people.

Or his soft brunette hair that looked so nice to run fingers through.

Or his perfect lithe form he could admire for hours. He would kiss every inch of his perfect milky skin if he could.

Or the was he smelt like bubblegum and Starburst. It was odd but he absolutely adored being around him and taking in his scent.

Or those cute god damn freckles that painted Naegis face like stars.

Truly, Byakuya found the boy to be beautiful inside and out, at every single angle. Naegi made him feel so warm inside, like sunshine.