Beauty Inside

Chapter 23.

The next day, everyone's pumped, and talking about what they're gonna do for Thanksgiving, a lot of the gift that they want to collect and turkeys to eat. But I. I'm just not pumped about anything. Maybe it's my conscience feeling terrible about my self. Or I feel stupid and a little bit nauseous. What's there to be pumped about? Everything is just the same except that I'm gonna spend it with my Sister and away. It's a change, I know, and I should be happy about it. But I just don't feel like it. Everything about me is just dead.

"You still like him!!" Cin said as she sat beside me.

"You just don't realize it!!" She told me.

"No she doesn't!! She's just feeling bad!!" Mia said. And they both sat beside me, we're currently in the library, as usual, and Cin was at my right, Mia left.

"I don't ever know anymore!!" I told them.

"You like Kelvin?" Cin asked me.

"Yeah I guess." I said. I still do, it's not just has strong for me to give him my virginity. Actually, yes. I only had three boyfriends in my life, I was just too small for sex when I dated them and Kelvin and i haven't done anything. So yeah!! And for all the bitches who think I'm a bitch. They're stupid. Well, I'm cheating on my boyfriend so I'm kind off a bitch.

"And you like Jace?" Mia asked.

"No!!" I said blankly.

"But you guys are always together!!" Cin said.

"You like him, you don't just see it!!" Mia said.

"Okay so what if I like him, which I don't?" I asked them.

"Tell Kelvin you like someone else?!!" Cin said.

"Easy for you to say. I don't even know if I like Jace, and what if I do tell Kelvin and we break up. How would I know if Jace even likes me!! Which is a lose-lose for me. Moreover, Kelvin would even be mad if he knows I broke up with him cause I like Jace...... Which I don't!!" I said. And they sighed.

"So what are you gonna do?" Mia asked me.

"If you think I know, will I be in the library?" I asked them. Cin nod and held my hand.

"You'll be fine. I just think you're going through a phase in relationship when you doubt your feelings!!" Cin said.

"What do you know about relationships. You've never been in one!!" Mia told Cin.

"And have you?" Cin asked. They both stare at each other.

"Hey hey, stop fighting!!" I said.

"She started it!!" They both said together. I stood up.

"I'll just go home and call in sick." I said.

"We have detention remember?" Mia said. Oh!!

"Right!!" I said and sat down back

"Why don't we have a girl's out. Only the three of us?" Mia asked.

"No..... I hate shopping!!" Cin groaned.

"We might not go shopping. Maybe get a massage, go to a spa, watch movies, eat dinner or something?" Mia said.

"My flight is 8!!" I said.

"Won't you and Jace talk about the flight and everything?" Cin asked me.

"You really don't want a girl's out?" Mia asked her.

"I don't know, I don't know if I want to see Jace!!" I said.

"You have too!!" Cin said. I sighed.