Okay So...Did You Have to Reject Me Infront of Everyone?

Chasing Dreams

really need to decide 'a last name for grant, any help here???

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I'm tired of looking for happiness. Tired of not being able to have the chance of being content with my life, simply because life has to be a bitch somebody, and that somebody has to be me.

I can't stand, I can't sit, so I simply fall. Everyone just stares at me, nobody knows me that well. My friends had to leave, their parents them all to go home. I guess they didn't want their child to be associated with who could have started their possible doom.

I don't blame them, when I'm not causing havoc to myself I'm causing havoc to the people around me. That's why Grant doesn't want me.

"He knows I'm no better than the shit that comes out of his ass. I'm the waste he has to deal with."

Everyone turned to hear the words of the blubbering, havoc reaking girl, the girl that they let into their gates, knowing she didn't belong. And now, because of that sacrifice, look what happened.

I looked up to see the eyes of my last resort.

Shaw.

I could tell you that he ran to me with open arms, kissed the top of my head and told me everythjping is gonna be alright. I could tell you that I ran to him, nearly tumbling him over, and begged him to make me feel better, to tell me everything was gonna be alright, that I would run away with him.

None of that happened.

What happened was, that he stared at me, but really, not as though he wanted to send any messages, or reassure me that everything was gonna be alright, rather he did like the rest.

He watched, and looked away.

"I can't take it."

I took off and did what was in my nature...

I shifted.

I wish I could just get away from it all. I can't let go, and let my wolf take control. I was never one to take a run,or feel the grass when I shifted, shifting was like a 6th toe on my right foot, it's just something I was born with.

It also something I can remove.

There's only one problem, when I remove wthat "sixth toe" I become a human. And what packs usually do is give you a whole new life depending on your status, for instance, since I' m an omega, when I leave the pack I'll probably get a low status. Like a job at McDonalds or something.

And knowing Grant, he'll probably put me as a prostitute.

But if Grant leaves the pack, he'll probably get a job as CFO.

I can't go rogue, they won't accept me now, not when I've ruined half of their lives, heck, not even my friends can hang out with me.

My family is gone now. As in, completly. What have I got left.

If I leave, I'll still have no one, and i'll be all alone, then again, It could be my chance to start all over.

Ugh, this is so confusing.

*The next day*

"Good morning Alpha and Head Lady, I would like to plead my case"

The head family, including Grant looked pissed that I was here, probably because it was so early in the morning,

" Hello Ms.Lupus, I saw what happened to your father, my condolenses." Mrs.??? said, smiling Sickly sweet. Okay, maybe I came a llittle bit too early.

I grimaced,," Thanks, and I'm sorry I came too early, but I've heard your decisions on what your going to do to the...uhh residents outlining the border," I was cutt off by Grant's snickering, his father sent him a glare that shut him up, " and I can no acknowledge that I can no longer be enrolled in that school."

They all started to glare at me, probably thinking that me reason for coming is very stupid, and shouldn't be handled at this time of day.

Alpha ?? sighed, " Ofcourse shayla, we'll allow you to enroll here right away."

I should stop beating around the bush, " Actually I'm not here for that, what I'm really here for is applications for my relinquishment."

"wait, wait." Grant butt in " So your on their side, your leaving the pack to be with them? They killed your father Shay."

Shay. I've never heard him me that.

"Now Grant, if Ms.Lupus thinks that is the way she wants to do deal with things, then this is her decisions, this will complicate things, I must add, considering she is the future Head Lady. You and Grant will have to mate before you go rogue."

I shook my head in frustration, " Alpha, sir, I'll give Grant the arrangements he needs to become alpha. I am not becoming a rogue, I am becoming human."

"Human." He said, as though it left a horrible taste in his mouth, "Ms.Lupus, your not thinking straight, your mourning over you father at the moment. If I let you make this decision, in a few weeks you'll regret it."

Grant laughed " Let her go make her life Hell. If she wants to be a worthless piece of shit I say we let her ."

"That's just it Grant. I'm worth less than a piece of shit. I'm tired of being put down because I'm an omega. If I had an average life, I would've sucked it up and dealt with the status,but things just never seem to get better."

"But Ms. Lupus,your not an omega, didn't you turn eighteen?" head lady said, cutting in.

Confused I said " Yes, I am eighteen, but my family members are omegas."

The head lady threw her head back and laughed " That doesn't mean a damn thing. Based on your mates status, you status changes, whether he accepts you, " she stopped to glare at Grant, then continue, " or not.

I let this new info sink in, should this make a difference? Should I rethink my decision of becoming a human.

Chasing happiness is like chasing the sun, if you don't give up, you usually find yourself going in circles and even if you do get there, you usually get there hot and blistered.

"I've made my decision. I wanna become human, I'll meet you all at Saturday for the ceremony."