Cleo's Heart Desicions.

In Pain And Tension!

"Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional but at the beginning everything is logical!"

~some minutes later, Thor's office~

Cleo's pov

"Am I clear till now?" he asks through his teeth and I nod weakly not knowing what else to do.

I think this is a nightmare, it can't be happening!

How can he do this to me? I am his mate and he...

He just told me that he wants nothing to do with me and he accepts me only as his Beta. He has found the one for him and he is not planning to leave her for me, he will never choose me, I am not the right one for the Luna's title and I have to keep my mouth shut or else...

There is nothing else!

He made himself more than clear and he has me exactly where he wants, my hands are bound for now because believe me I am not going to stand this situation for too long, I won't bear it and I need time to decide what to do...

I am not weak or useless as he believes (at least when it comes to my heart because he already knew that I am a strong fighter, this is why he wants me as his Beta)!

I agree with him only for now but my heart is so 'wild' sometimes that it won't take me long till I reach my limits and decide to end this in any way I can!

I am accepting his terms for my pack and my family, I love them all, they are counting on me and I am not planning to disappoint them for anyone even if he is my Alpha and 'mate'!

My heart is ready to break for good these last minutes but I am managing to stand on my ground self-collected as always! Clea was screaming and howling so much that I had to block her for the first time in my entire life and I feel bad about it but I couldn't do otherwise. I will talk with her after I am done from here and he tells me the rest as we are not over...

We are sitting in silence for a while... He has his seat behind his office and I am sitting on a chair right opposite of him. After he slapped me he took the envelope I had left to fall on the floor and he almost dragged me to sit because he needed us to 'talk'.

This is the irony because we didn't talk or better I didn't talk, he said it all and now he just asked me if I understood everything but I can't tell him that I understand more than he believes...

He surely knew that we are mates from when he turned 16! This is why he took his distance from me in one night without reason and disappeared from my life! Also he didn't have Lillian back then so she can't be the reason he didn't want me back then...

Something else is happening and I don't know what, I know Thor although he thinks otherwise...

Moreover, he doesn't know that I am not the fragile girl I used to be when we were teenagers, I am not a coward, I am capable of everything and most importantly I am too proud to stand such behavior!

I am almost sure about how this is going to end but I assure you that he knows nothing!

"When I am asking you something I want a proper answer Beta!" he growls and I force myself not to groan or react.

"Yes Alpha! You are more than clear!" I state coldly and he raises his eyebrows pleased in an ironic way.

I knew Thor could be such an asshole but I could have never imagined this behavior to his real mate! I don't know what has gotten into him, he is staring at me with so much hatred and anger that if he could kill me in this way I would have died more than 100 times till now. His light brown eyes are almost black, his jaw is clenching, his chest in going up and down, he turns red the more minutes are passing and he is trying to control his body because he is shaking.