The curtis sister

chapter 11

All I felt was pain. Pain in my head, back, ribs, legs, and arms. The last thing I remembered was the soc's pulling up trying to pick a fight. I'm not to sure what happen after that besides all the pain I'm in. But I do hear beeping. Lots and lots of beeping and feet walking all around me. I even hear whispering. But I cant make out what ever the mysterious voice is saying. I started to move around because what ever I'm on is very uncomfortable. "guys she's waking up" someone yelled. I opened my eyes to see all the gang there. "w-what happen" I questioned. " we were jumped they were fighting us and sidetracked us so they could beat you. They nocked you out cold and then continued. Dallas saw and lost it. He and the other Socs are in jail while they rushed you here. Me and Johnny got away clean because we weren't fighting when the cops were called." Ponyboy answered me. I looked down at me. My leg and arm had a cast on it. I had bandages on my arm where I cut my self. I had a bandage around my upper torso and half way down to my stomach. I felt like crap. I don't understand why bad things keep happening to me. Its like the universe is telling me that I don't belong here. I just sat there starting at the wall thinking. I felt all six eyes on me but only two pair new how I was feeling. Ponyboy and Johnny. Them two are the only ones who will listen to me and will actually wait for my side of the story. Steve and Two don't know how to handle things like this, Soda tries to understand but doesn't all the time, and Darry he doesn't understand at all. He sits there and yells at me and Ponyboy like were some kind of dogs that don't listen. He's my brother not my dad. "umm guys why is she just straying at the wall like that. Its been like 5 minutes and she hasn't blinked." Steve asked kinda weird out. " She does that when she's in deep thought." Johnny replied. " does she do that a lot?" Two-Bit asked. "only when she's thinking about something that I don't think she wants yall to know about." pony told him. " And that should be" Darry asked. " I really think she should to you Darry its not myy place to tell" ponyboy replied to him " Ponyboy just tell me" " no Darry is she wants you to know she will tell you like she did with me and Johnny." This is why pony is my favorite brother. I know you shouldn't have favorites but lets me honest everyone does. My parents loved the boys equally. But me on the other hand it was like they didn't give a crap. They never hit me or anything they loved me but they were more protective and loving towards the boys. But they were like never there for me. I can come back 2 hours after curfew and they didn't noticed. But oh well. The doctor came in about 10 minutes ago telling me I was able to go. Pony and Johnny helped me get into the wheelchair and they took turns wheeling me out because they both wanted to do it. I smiled at that and lightly laughed. When we got to the truck they helped me in the seat. They put my wheelchair in the back with them. All the boys decided to sit back there while me and Darry sat in the cab part. " Ashlynn I want you to tell me right now what's going on and I mean it." " when I'm ready Darry I will tell you just like pony said I would. I just don't want to talk about it right now." " oh your going to tell me if you like it or not." " no I'm not your not my dad your my brother. You only take care of my because I'm ponys twin. If I wasn't his twin I would have been sent to a girls home by now. You and Soda don't love me I'm just a durned. I all ways mess up according to you. I try my best to please you but I can never do that. Your not my dad and you NEVER will be. So NO I'm not going to tell you in till I'm ready." I yelled at him. I couldn't handle my emotions anymore. He looked mad and looked like he wanted to say something. We were just pulling up to the house. I pushed the door open and yelled for Johnny and Pony to help me. They pushed me inside and placed me beside the couch. " hey pone I want to take a bath can you help me get in there I can handle the rest?" " yeah come on" he grabbed my night gown for me and my underwear and wheeled me in the bathroom. I thanked him and he left. I placed my self on the tub and ran the water. As I was waiting for the water to get full and warm I saw my extra raiser. I grabbed it and popped the blade out of it. I took a deep breath and grazed the sharp mettle over my wrist. This is what Darry wants I told my self.