The curtis sister

chapter12

I watched as the blood dripped into the bathtub from my wrist. I let out a sigh and smiled. I washed off the cup with soap and water and continued to wash my hair. I easily got out and wrapped my wrist and put on my night gown. I'm so glad that pony brought me my long sleeve gown. I hopped on one foot to my wheel chair and easily sat down. I opened the door and pushed my self out with my foot and hand. " hey pony you help me to bed?" " yeah I'm comin?" he pushed me to our room and helped me to get in to the bed. He told me good night and then kissed me on my head then left to join the rest in the living room. I feel asleep that night with a smile on my face but not for a good reason. The next morning I woke up to 2 arms around my torso. Soda was behind me and Pony was in front of me. I pushed their arms off of me and army crawled out of the bed. I put my feet on the ground and wheeled to the bathroom. I did my business and went to the kitchen. I saw Darry in there already making breakfast. I wheeled right over to the fridge and grabbed the orange juice and pored me a glass. I wheeled straight to the living room and saw that the whole gang stayed the night. I wheeled over to the couch that Johnny was asleep on and picked up his head very gently. I lifted my self out of the wheel chair sat down and placed his head on my lap. He snuggled up to me and wrapped his arms around me. I smiled and played with his hair. After about 20 minutes Darry went to wake up Soda and Pony. "Breakfast guys" he said once he came back into the living room. They guys rushed in there but I stayed behind. Johnny steal wasn't up yet so I had to wake him. " hey Johnnycakes its time to eat" I told him while lightly shaking him. He slowly opened his eyes and smiled a little. " okay thanks angle cakes" he kissed my cheek and went into the kitchen. After a few minutes pony noticed I wasn't in there. So he came and wheeled me in there. I didn't really want to eat because that meant that I had to see Darry and I didn't want to do that. Luckily I was still in my night gown so the guys hasn't seen my cuts and I'm glad. Darry wasn't to happy when I came in. " Ashlynn why the hell do you still have you night gown on with the guys here." " Because I cant walk over to the closet to get my dress since I cant wear jeans." " you know I don't like you wearing stuff like that" " well right now I don't have a choice now do I?" " Where is this smart mouth coming from young lady?" " You know damn well where its coming from have you forgotten yesterday already? Oh that's right you were so up that waitresses ass that you forgot to see that she was ignoring your little sister and you gave to shits about me. But no I was in the wrong." " Don't talk to me like that young lady do you understand me" I didn't answer him I was livvid at this point the gang looked scared. " Ashlynn DO YOU HEAR ME?" " crystal" I told him and slid my food away. I pushed my self away from the table and pushed my self to my room so I could get dress to please him. Why cant I do anything right for him. It wasn't my fault that we were jumped and they broke my leg so I cant wear pants. But to Darry it was. How would he like it that he caused his little sister to cut her self again. He doesn't want me. A voice said to me over and over again. I saw a shiny metal thing shining in the light by the window. I wheeled over to it and saw my switch blade. I flipped it open and saw a very small spot of blood. My blood. I look to see if anyone could see me. I rolled up my sleeve and placed the blade on my arm. Here goes nothing. I felt a sting and saw blood gushing from my arm. That was the last thing I saw before I screamed Pony's name. I saw nothing but blackness.