Love&War (Justin Bieber fan fiction )

Chapter 57

Gabby's POV

"Alright I think that's everything ." I sighed taking a much needed breath. Looking around the front yard i couldn't help but feel content that this was the last im seeing it . Today was moving day and I finally got the last of my stuff out , well stuff that wasn't ruined in the fire .

Ryan looked down at me in sympathy as he helped carry my last box of clothes to my car . The past few weeks had been extremely stressful and a pain in my ass . Ever since my major break down and I nearly burned down his mansion I was completely out of it .

It nearly killed me having everything go on between Justin and I . I don't know who I was more mad at , myself or him . How could he keep such a big secret from me ? Selena pregnant ? It literally makes me sick to my stomach . Everyday he looked me in my eyes and lied to me. Than Ontop of everything he slept with my bestfriend !!! My bestfriend . Im not one of those girls that get mad at the girl and easily forgive the guy . Yes she's at fault , and I have yet to forgive her but I did understand the circumstances of why it had happened .

Carly drunk is horrific . She was definitely voted school slut back in high school just because she had an extremely high sex drive and could not handle her liquor . That might be a poor excuse but I could see how one thing could lead to another . As of today I am no longer speaking to her . Both her and Justin have been blowing my phone up leaving long voicemails and lengthy texts but neither got a respond from me . At some point I got a new phone and number altogether and only gave a select few access to it.

I just can't wait for all of this to be completely over . Of course Justin and I were all over the media . There were so many rumors and stories and reports . Every magazine had my face on it labeling "MENTAL BREAK DOWN," "TEEN MOM CRACKS UNDER PRESSURE LIVING IN SHADOW OF POP STAR HUSBAND" , "MENTALLY UNSTABLE" and many more harsh titles . I never dared to read into them because I was sure that those words that were written about me would push me over the edge if I wasn't already there that is.

My break down made me see that i did need help . I never had any mental illness before but after that break down i was diagnosed with a couple . I could have harmed Emery . That's what scares me the most . My mental stablity has been questioned and sadly I, myself was questioning so I did the next best think and scheduled to be admitted into rehab for the next 30days. Even though I wasn't going for an drug or alcohol issues i was assured that they could help me with emotional issues and if there were any mental issues evident than id learn how to handle them .

Fire is a dangerous thing to play with . And after everything was said and done I was surprised at myself for even pulling a stunt like that . My mental senses were clearly not there.Fortunately no charges were pressed on me even though if they were my father would get me out of it. Im fact I turned my divorce over to him. The papers were already signed and an agreement over property and material items were already divided . All we were waiting did was Justin's signature . I knew he was stalling out this process . He probably thought he could be able to talk me out of it like the last time but I wasn't caving this time . I was getting this divorce .

"Well that's everything ." Ryan half smiled after putting the last box in my trunk . "Thank you so much for everything Ryan. You really been a great help . From day 1 you supported me and always looked out for me ." I genuinely thanked him . "Gabby you'd like the sister I never had . I love you and I just want things to get better for you . Even if Justin's not involved ." My head dropped when I heard his name . "Yeah ." Was all I could muster up ."So your doing this rehab thing ?" Ryan wrapped his arm around my shoulder while walking me to my side of the car .

"Yeah . Im leaving later on this afternoon . It kills me being away from Emery that long . But my parents promised to take good care of her and watch over her for me ." I frowned at the thought of leaving my baby behind. It literally brought tears to my eyes . "Will Justin get to see her ?" Ryan looked at me questioningly at me . "Umm...yeah . He doesn't know im going to rehab . Your the only person that knows besides my parents . My mom is going to drop her off with Pattie since right now she can't even look at Justin without wanting to kill him and if my father gets close to him again he will kill him . Everyday Justin will get her from 9am to around 4pm. That should be plenty of time . My parents promised to bring Emery to visit me everyday so that's comforting . I just want to get better and move forward ."

Ryan listened intently to me . "What time are you leaving ?" He finally spoke up . "Tomorrow morning . I just wanted to move my stuff out now so that I don't have to deal with it later ." I sat in the drivers seat turning the car on . Once the engine roared to life i took a deep breath looking up at Ryan . "Welp this is it ." Ryan kneeled down to my level and kissed my forehead . "I'll see you soon kid ." He smiled . "Back at you kid." I laughed before shutting my car door . This feels like the beginning of a long road .