Love&War (Justin Bieber fan fiction )

Chapter 59

Gabby's POV

I closed my eyes and literally counted to 20 silently to myself. Justin stormed out of the room leaving me and Jaron speechless . I was terrified of him honestly .

"Sweetheart are you okay ?" Jaron asked me looking into my eyes . I nodded my head slowly . "I think so . I just need to splash some water on my face. It's just a lot right now." I said as i rubbed my face with my hands . "Yeah I understand. He's horrible Gabriela. How did you stay with him that long ? His temper is out of control . You were shaking the entire time he was going off.You gave off this vibe as if you were afraid of him ." I could hear the pain in his voice but refused to look at him .

"Im going to the rest room really fast ." I jumped up from my seat before he could say anything else . Going into the empty hallway I felt slight relief . That room was nothing but negative energy and it completely drained me.

Yesterday was my first day home from rehab . It was a great experience but also kind of depressing since I was away from my daughter . My mother kept her promise and brought Emery to see me everyday for at least a couple of hours . She knew it would be impossible to concentrate on the treatment if im worrying and stressing about her . I still worried but seeing her everyday made me feel better .

The first night of course was the hardest . I don't think I slept . I cried every night until maybe the last week of the program . That sounded pretty bad but being there alone away from everyone makes you forced to deal with those emotions that you often ignore . I thought about everything Justin and i been through . There was way more bad than positives . But the biggest most best thing that could of happened to us was our baby . With her we would always have that close bond .

I thought about our divorce and how this would affect Emery . Not only will it always be hard on her being Justin Bieber's daughter but also have both of her parents apart . I guess it's kind of better that we split up now instead of waiting til she's old enough to be use to the idea of having both parents together . I felt horrible about this decision. And I often changed my decision about the divorce but after back to back therapy sessions and group sessions i concluded this was best .

I deserve to be treated better . I thought he could change and I have gave him longer than he deserved to make things right. He didn't .Sadly I was so naive. He never changed . He kept his relationship with Selena this whole time and fucked my bestfriend . What man does that to the woman he loves ?

While staying there I was also evaluated and diagnosed with depression&anxiety . My parents were so distraught when they first learned this . Neither one of those disorders ran in the family so when my therapist told them those symptoms stimulates from the things that I've been through with Justin they flipped shit.

My dad said he would even sign Justin's name for him because this divorce going to be finalized as soon as possible . I didn't speak to Justin the entire time I was there . I doubt he even knew where I was . I had no access to Internet , tabloids , or cellphones so it was basically as if I was left in the dark .

But I know I needed this . It felt more stable and focused . They put me on medication so it helped keep me balanced out . And I was on it for awhile until I found out the biggest news . Im pregnant . When you first get there they give you a mini physical. They asked if I was pregnant and I told them no so they didn't give me a test . But as the days went on i started feeling sick and getting similar symptoms that I experienced in my first pregnancy .

I had this gut feeling i was pregnant but tried to ignore it . I brought it up in therapy and she went out and got me a test and insisted i take it . When I saw that it was positive i broke down . Just my fucking luck to be pregnant after all this shit happens . I didn't want this for me right now . And I refused to tell anyone that secret .

Walking down to the bathroom I felt a strong grip on my arm pulling me into this room . I was about to scream when I seen that familiar blonde hair . I sighed in relief that it had been him and not some weirdo . "What the hell are you doing ?!" I yelled as soon stood in front of me blocking the door. Justin took a deep breath than looked at me intently .

"No what the hell are you doing is the question. " He folded his arms over his chest . "Justin please stop . You know why im here . I want a divorce ." I sighed . He shook his head . "No you don't . I don't believe anything you were saying back there ." I rolled my eyes . "Well believe it . I don't want you . Now move so I can go back and finalize this thing ." I took a step forward and he lightly pushed me back .

I looked at him confusingly . "Why are so you childish ? Accept this divorce and that I don't want you anymore ." Justin grunted than started laughing . My blood started to rise . Did he think he was funny ? "What the fuck is so funny Justin ?" I sucked my teeth . He finally stopped laughing and looked up at me . "You are . This is a joke . Your trying to act like you don't give a fuck in front of your asshole father and your stupid ass,whatever the hell he is to you !" Justin shouted .

"Oh my god give it a rest Justin ." I groaned dramatically throwing my head back. "Just accept that I don't want this marriage anymore . Seriously your pissing me the fuck off !" I started to raise my voice . This was making me angry by the second . Especially with my pregnancy hormones starting to kick in my patience was going low with this back and forth crap.

"Get pissed Gabby ! Get pissed because guess what I am , ANGRY AS FUCK !! I know I've fucked up but than you move out and sign divorce papers that I get in the mail , I don't see or hear from you for a month and now I'm hearing you talk about taking my daughter from me like what the fuck !!!" His face was grown red and he was yelling at this point pacing back and forth .

I opened my mouth to say something but I got this sharp pain . I winced slightly but recovered quickly when Justin turned his attention back to me. "Get that stupid look off your face Gabby . " Justin sneered . My face twisted up when I felt cramping . "You know what Gabby I don't get it . I give you everything you want, I take care of you and our daughter, I love you like crazy like why are you trying to destroy our family ? I love you Gabby why can't you see that ? I've fucked up so much in past but I made up for it ."

After the quick pain subsided and it was like I turned into a different person within a blink of an eye. "Are you kidding me right now ?" I said lowly and sternly . "Justin get the fuck out of here !!" I yelled . My voice made Justin jump slightly but he pulled it together and his jaw tightened .

"This whole marriage is a joke . Why would I want to be in this joke of an marriage where im just constantly cheated on and treated like shit !" As I yelled i started to feel a liquid substance come out from down there . I know I wouldnt pee myself so there could be only one other option ...