The Story Of Us

Chapter 21: Hormones Bouncing

~~~~Should this chapter be special lol~~~~

Memories. That's all I can think of now. Memories of me and him. It all hurts like son of a bitch. From the time we first met, to now. After I pulled away from the kiss, I didn't know to react. So I kept quiet and waited for him to leave. Why did it have to be him? Why did I ever have to fall for him? He'll do nothing but hurt me. And everything he does reminds me of how much he has hurt me. He put me through hell and back without even knowing it.

After he left, I drove straight to my mom's house. The windows are rolled up, my sun roof has yet to come down all day. The music is blasting. The bass is turned almost all the way up. I'm drowning out of this world called home. Its a really fucked up place with some pretty messed up people. Was this world only ment for people to be hurt? Or was this place made for those who aren't hurt, happy? For damn sure, I'm part of the group that is hurt. No matter what I do, what I say, I get hurt somehow. Whether it be a great day for me or not, I get hurt by the end of a day.

Once I get home I rush up to my room. My anxiety is attacking me like a virus. Tearing me limb by limb. I then hear someone run into my room panicking. I have my ears covered and I thought the music was blaring but it was just me screaming.

"Macy, Macy, are you okay?" Katie asks me pulling my hands away from my ears.

"I can't take it, Katie. He's tearing me apart. He wants me and I guess I don't know, I want him too but I don't want to be hurt again. Its difficult and you don't understand!" I start screaming at her. "Out just out!" I then shoo her out of my room. I start pulling my hair from the roots while screaming and crying. I grab everything in my awakening and throw it to the opposite side it originally was at. "God damn it!" I cut myself on a piece of glass. My knees start to feel like they're giving up on me. Then all at once, I fall to the floor.

"Iris, if you can come ver or anyone that would be great." I hear Katie say through the door. "Well send someone over I don't know how to handle her right now. Okay I'll see them then."

I start biting my lip and throw my volleyball trophy at the wall. Pulling my hair, biting my lip, crying, throwing anything near me. These are all the actions I've taken. Ripping up paper, photos, posters.

"The relationship was fake." The side of him I start hearing say. "I can't live without you." The good side I remember him as says. Both came from the same person but seem like two completely different people. One is sweet and wouldn't even a fly. The other I wish never existed. I don't know which to believe.

Within ten minutes I hear someone walk into the house. "Thank god you're here, she's up in her room and out of control." I hear Katie say. My door is then kicked over. I don't even bother looking up to see who it is.

"Enough, I'm done seeing you broken." I hear the person say. Its him. I don't want him to be around. For all I care he could jump off a cliff. "Look at me." He then takes my chin between his thumb and index finger. Forcing me to look up at him. "I will fix us. I've already said, I don't want to see you broken anymore, so, make up your mind, do you forgive me or not, and I'm not leaving here till I get an answer out of you." I stay silent. He then takes me into his arms.

"Don't touch me." I say pushing him away.

"Then tell me, will you or will you not forgive me for my idiotic choices?" He asks.

"I don't want to end up broken again, Josiah. Being broken is like everything inside you is being torn apart. On the outside you seem fine, but on the inside you know you're broken. And nobody ever notices you are. And may not seem like it but, there have been days where I'm about ready to just give up on life. Because, it is rare that anything fixes me. I'm like a glass tea cup that's been dropped far too many times and has been broken enough times that the next time I break, not even glue can fix me." I start speaking metaphorically.