Dear me,
would you please stop being so damn needy? I understand that you feel alone and that you want to give love, and receive it back, trust me, I understand completely. But that's the most dangerous and self destructing thing you could do right now. There's a chance of 89% that you will get hurt. Why on earth do you want to test it right now?? If that fails and somebody breaks your heart, I'm sorry to say that to you that brutally right now, but I genuinely don't know how you plan on surviving heartbreak with this mindset in this period of your life, ESPECIALLY considering that your heart feels already like it's breaking every day, and that without an energy draining romance in your life. I'm trying really hard to heal you and make you happy. And it's a lot of work. So I kind of do see how you think somebody else can fix or heal your heart, but it doesn't work like that. Life is not a movie or a romance novel. If your heart already feels like it's breaking, EVEN IF somebody would heal it, as soon as they leave you, you'll have 10 times this much pain. And not to be overdramatic, but I don't know if you could handle that. At all. Not even mentioning the major trust issues that you have already, acting impulsively would be dumb right now.
Please distance yourself from him.
Just please do it.
I really don't want you to get hurt for the 100000th time, especially in this timestamp.
Love,
Yourself that finally cares about you and is trying really hard to protect you
