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eliza pov:

it's too hard to not love him. sure, he looks like a gremlin, but in a good way. i think.. anyway, this jack guy sure is lucky to have a guy like alexander. i can't help but feel jealous about it. jealousy and anger, that's what i feel.

"you respect women?!" angelica yells from across the room.

"yuh sis, it's not that hard to learn basic respect." alex says in a matter-of-fact tone.

"period, get em, bitch. that's what i like to hear!" angelica says with admiration. she was obviously drunk too.

"..anyway, herc, why did you start a fight?" i ask, turning my attention to hercules, who was chugging down his fourth monster energy drink this night. he puts the drink down and sways a bit. he leans against lafayette.

"i had too much whiskey and saw a creepy bald guy with this girl. gave me super bad vibes because she looked about 18. the guy looked 40. i came up to them and pretended to be a bartender, i don't think it worked thought because he got annoyed with me.-"

peggy interrupts him with a loud burp. i shoot her a warning look. peggy smiles sheepishly.

"-then, i punched him. it was pretty epic though." hercules says, acting like it was the most normal thing in the world.

"okay, never have I ever. had a dirty thought about the same gender!" peggy says. lafayette takes a shot, peggy takes a shot, and unsurprisingly, alex takes a shot. everybody looks at alexander, amused. everybody but me. i look at him, unsurprised and disappointed. not with him, but with how the night turned out.

"y'all, i can explain-"

"no need, gay bitch." peggy says sassily. they laugh while i stay silent. was it really a good idea to play this game while drunk? alexander's really exposing himself.

a cold, yet terribly hot feeling rolled inside my body, alexander could never love me back. he's too infatuated with whoever jack is. it's enough to make me sad and angry at the same time.

"alexander, why do you like jack so much?" i ask him. my voice came out harsher than expected, it had an angry undertone to it. he turns around to face me, drunk, tired, and red in the face.

"his name is john. he's really cute. i like his hair, it's fluffy. i think i'm catching feelings. he looks like a bottom but he radiates big daddy vibes, i'd totally let him top me."

"ew, go home." peggy says, half joking. they all had a good time, excluding me. i can't shake the anger out of me, it's like a parasite.

"mon beloved bitches, we need to leave! i must get my beauty sleep." lafayette says, obviously drunk. wr agree and call ubers to take us all home. all i have on my mind is, why do i feel so bitter? do i have a new found hatred for john?and what does he have that i don't? i just want alexander to want me, not him.

a/n: elizaaaa dont be sad :( also I want a girlfriend >:(((