The Truth about our past (Wrrong choice? 2)

Part 6

we was sitting it the Car parked outside a Fancy big house, Both me and Lucas got amazed by it and can't almost belive our mom lived in it before. we go inside and see all the fancy furniture as our Grandpa showed us around in the big house. I'm so amazed, maybe cause I'm not used to this fancy lifestyle, All my life I have been living in a small little house in spain, we havn't as much money, but we had enough to survive, but my Grandpa in other hand...I found out he was a millioner!!!, I got all crazy in my head, Why havn't my mom told me that before? and one more time, why havn't we lived in Argentina our whole life? I mean, Perssonally I love it here even if I just been here some minutes but also the thought of us having a better life, cause I really belive that in Argentina everything will be better for us...but thinking of it now I maybe just think that cause of Grandpas Fancy house, that dosn't mean all the houses need to be that way and If my Father and Toby came over here it would still be the same...am I right?.... In my thoughts My Grandpa showed us the Last room, we got Inside and it was so pretty inside, a Pink wall with some purple flowers on it, a big waderobe, a withe desk and a bed. as my mom entered she said "Wow can't belive you keeped my room like this after all these years, it's exactlly like I remember it" I got amazed, this was my mothers old room. all i could say was "Wow" My grandpa saw I was amazed by the room and put his hand on my shoullder, he asked if I wanted to sleep in the room, and offcorse I want, "But only if Lucas sleep in this room too" My Grandpa smiled big at us and gave us a "Yes" after that I gave him a big hug, he hold me verry tight again, I wispered About how happy I'm to be here with him and that even if we just meet I love him with my whole heart, he kissed my forhead and told me he feelt exactlly the same...after that he and my mom leaved the room and me and Lucas started to unpack our stuff while talking about how amazing all this is and how we wish it will be like this forever, in that moment our Grandpa entered again with his big smile, this time he had a comfy madress with him that Lucas is supossed to sleep in, Lucas thanked him for it all as he put down some pillows and a blanket for him...Our Grandpa smiled and told us it was no problem and that he's happy for us to be here, he said he had wished to see us and our mother ever sinc we were born, but....he stoped his sentence for a moment, looking a bit sad then he just stood up and leaved, before he closed the door he said good night to us, and now both me and Lucas are sitting in the room all comfused of what our Grandpa was about to say...but we leav it be for now.

we unpack all out stuff then we go to bed, but before we sleep I pick up my new dairy and my pen, I wanna write in it for the first time. I open the first side of It and start write: "Dear Dairy, My Name is Lindy and well...I never writed in a dairy before, all I know is my mom used to write in one and my Grandmother too, so I might as well try it myself..." As I wrote Lucas started to Laugh "So you really are gonna write in that thing" once again I ingnored his childish behavior and continue the writing: "As a Start I just wanna give all my happy thoughts. Today is the best day in my whole life and nothing can ruin it, Today I got on a one week trip with my mother and my twin brother that I love more then anything in Life, I also meet my Grandpa for the first time in my whole life and It almost feels like I knew him forever, I love him so mutch and also this amazing place, I wish I could stay here forever"
I looked down at my dairy and continued by writing my deeper & darker thoughts: "...but we can't cause of Tomas my "Father" If I even can call him that...I allways get the feeling he dosn't like me our my brother, I don't know why, but he dosn't treet us right...I wonder why he is so verry crule to us...the truth is...I'm sorry for myself felling like this...but I maybe not love our even like him, I mean he's still my father but he never showed any kind of Love or support to me and my brother he dosn't even show he likes us and never said "I love you" to us,  shoulldn't a father do that to his kids?!..." Once again I got interupted by Lucas, he didn't say anything, just gave me a weird stear that made me creeped out, in that moment I realised I maybe shoulld stop my writing for today and go to sleep but before I close my dairy I have one more look at it, Realising I by mistake wrote something more as I looked away, and my hand still write the words, I hold the pen in my hand and it was like it atomaticlly made my hand follow it and write on the papper, when it finally stopped building it last sentence I read it: "...sometimes I think it's not even reall, That my whole life is just a lie, deep down I have allways knew that tomas Isn't my reall father..." I got alittle bit scared of what I had wrote and dropped the dairy on the floor, Lucas aked what happened, and I pretended like everything was normal, I told him It's time for sleep, turned of the lights then lay down on the bed. I try to sleep but all i can think of is what I wrote about him and how it all might be true, Tomas dosn't look like me our my brother and no one of us have a perssonality like him...this can also explain why he is so crule to us..."No....no!...no...Don't think like this!" I thought to myself "offcorse he's my father!", I try to dropp it all, but the thought just got stuck in my mind...but after a long while I finally feel asleep.

It's a big day tomorrow, we will finally meet our biggest idol Lv. I need to stay happy and focused cause tomorrow might be a even better day then today.