Affair with the Billionaire (Gentlemen Game: Series I)

Kabanata XX

Kabanata XX

Faith

AWKWARD. Is the undermost word I can use to the situation I'm in right now. I heard someone clears throat and fake cough but I pretend that it doesn't bothers me at all. I am just so nervous right now that I cannot look at anyone in the dinning table.

Nobody dares to talk or even to make a light conversation.

"We'll talk later, for now let's just have our breakfast at peace." that was grandpa's clear statement a while ago.

When father and travis arrived, I cannot look them in the eye, I'm afraid to see things I don't want to see. Rejection perhaps? I don't know. I tried to be polite by greeting them but my lips trembled warns me to shut myself up or else I'll have my nervous breakdown any minute.

How am I suppose to react to the situation like this?

I admit that I am not in my usual self. Father was all smile when we welcomed them. He hug me tight murmuring things I don't understand because I was so tense to process anything, he gave me a light kiss on my temple before he face and greet the other. I don't know how and what to react, I thought I was ready to this kind of situation but I guess I'm not!

My head was spinning with a lot things. I just drew a deep sigh to calm myself and thought about after years, they are really here.

A sophisticated social butterfly highly trained not to be intimidated by anyone's look and social status couldn't obtain her poise and courage. What a shame?

I am so stiff, para akong nakalunok ng bakal ngayon. I could feel the tension on the dining.. o baka naman ako lang itong tensyonado masyado? So silent and discreet. Tanging ingay lang ng kubyertos ang maririnig.

I silently slice and chew my food in a timid way without having a glance at anyone.

Not until I noticed a big hand put something on my plate. Nabitawan ko ang aking bread knife sa gulat at kamuntik pa akong matayo.

Nanlaki ang mata ko sa gulat kaya't mabilis akong nag angat ng tingin at nakita ko ang strikto at seryosong mukha ni luke habang naglalay ng pagkain sa plato ko. I was too preoccupied that I didn't notice about luke!

Hindi ko napansin na sa tabi ko pala ito umupo. Kumag na to! Tiningnan ko ito ng masama na malamang ay hindi naman nito nakita dahil hindi naman ito nakatitig sa pagmumukha ko.

Mabilis kong inilibot ang mata ko sa hapag sa takot na baka anong isipin nila kung makita nila ang ginawa ni luke, lalo na't hindi pa nawawala ang hiya ko noong nahuli kaming naghahalikan ni luke sa labas ng bahay!

Diyos ko naman mukhang nakalimutan ko pa 'ata na ako ang unang humalik ah? Tho, wala naman talagang malisya ang paglagay ni luke ng pagkain sa plato ko, pero kasi ay parang na asiwa pa 'rin ako. Ayaw ko lang kasi na baka anong isipin nila lalo na't hindi maganda ang nangyari kahapon.

Si lolo at lola na tahimik na kumakain sa tapat ko ang una kong nakita kasunod ang ama ko na seryosong nakatingin kay mama na tahimik lang din'g kumakain sa aking tabi.  Mabuti't hindi masyado'ng malakas ang tunog ng kubyertos na nabitawan ko kaya't hindi gaano kalakas ang tunog niyon.

Pero kamuntikan na akong nahulog sa inu-upuan ko ng mapadako ang tingin ko kay kuya travis! It's not like I tried to be defensive even if the signs are already showing but, since then I always see him as a strict big brother already. The way he treated me back then? I can still recall how he warns me about getting a boyfriend and how he taught me about avoid and ignore my opposite sex. Oh yes I remember it cristal clear.  He even bullied me for that.