Another day stuck in the house you would think thats a paradise until the days become bored and dull you do the same things all day every day. Its like a cell looking at the same four walls everyday. I can't take it leave it to me to have to deal with my mess and self destructive thoughts in a house all alone. I just can't do this between my social life and the mess i have to deal with on the daily i never took the time to realize just how toxic I am. I'm a horrible girlfriend I take my words amd stories and make them seem like they are words of greater power an use them against him which then make him feel bad an all I ever do is hurt him with my words and actions I never realized it but when you don't realize your being toxic doesnt mean your not it just means that you are unaware of the hatm you are causinf the ok ther peopme in your life who meannthe most too you. An im going to make it my business to change for desmond idk where to start but i will figure it out an reevaluate myself for him bc he has d ik ne so much for me and i havve taken it for granted I am hypocritical in every way an form and that must stop I must practice what i oreach an treat him how I want to be treated. Ive made this relationship so onesided I have to actually take a step back an see the bigger picture because lords knows I love desmond till the moon and back and so mich more my world revolves around him even though it shouldnt but he is my everything and i think.thats the problem I abouldnt make him my everything he shouldnt have to bend to my will and be there at every beck and call im strong, smart , amd Independent I can do this on my own and I dont need him to do it for me I can buy it myself I can respect him and his boundaties. I can show him the love he deserves to be ahown because he is a king a natural born king MY natural born King and hes mine forever so. I have to do right by him. He says he cant feel anymore an its my fault that he can't feel pain. Its my fault that he cant love me. Idk if he feels trapped if he just wants to play games but it all just hurts an I dont know what to do about it I just have to do my best to change and do right by him be there when he needs me and help him feel again. The way every man should have a right too.
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Tears and Sorrows💙
De Todo?THE TITLE SAYS IT ALL? ....... -WARNING THIS BOOK MAY COME OFF AS DEPRESSING SO I ADVISE ANY PERSON WITH SITUATIONS OF THAT SORT NOT TO READ ALSO THIS BOOK IS MY FIRST I AM AN AMATEUR IVE NEVER WRITTEN A BOOK BEFORE SO THIS BOOK MAY BE COMPLETELY T...
