you and i (SINRIN)

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SinB's P.O.V.

9:27 na ng gabi.
Pero nandito parin ako sa tapat ng gate. I'm waiting for Yerin and Sowon unnie.
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I'm really worried about them.
Lahat kami ay nag aalala na.
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We've tried calling them kaso,walang sumasagot.It's just ringing...
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Nagtatanong tanong narin sila Yuju at Umji sa mga friends namin by calling them at pag foforward ng messages na mag reply back if they know kung nasaan sila Yerin.
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Nilalamok na ko dito sa labas but I'm willing to endure it.
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Napaka tahimik naman ng paligid. 
The only noise na naririnig ko ay yung T.V. ng kapit bahay.Onanay pa yata yung pinapanood. 
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Fast forward>>>>

9:58 na. Dalawang minuto nalang mag aalas dyes na. Taehyung said na doon sya matutulog sa living room.He also offered me to get inside na, at sya nalang daw maghihintay kila Yerin.Pero syempre hindi ako papayag noh, 
Gusto ko na pag dating nya dito, ako yung una nyang makikita.

I've changed a lot for the past few weeks.
Sobrang laki ng pagbabago ko.
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Because of Yerin unnie, I'm not cold anymore.
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Nababawasan ko na rin yung pag bibitiw ng masasakit na salita..
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Although hindi naman maiiwasan, I'm still trying to be a better person for unnie.
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I've never felt this sure about my feelings before, at sigurado akong love na 'to at hindi lamang infatuation.
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The only problem is that, I cant express love very well. Sometimes, gusto ko syang yakapin.Gusto ko rin syang lapitan, kausapin,take care of her, and tell her how much I cherish her.Pero dahil nga sa pride ko, at dahil hindi rin ako sigurado kung gusto rin ba nya ako,pinipigilan ko tong nararamdaman ko.
When she's around, I always pretend that I didn't see her. 
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And when she's near, naduduling ako dahil hindi ko mai-focus yung mata ko sa ibang bagay dahil, kusa itong napapatingin sa kanya.
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What should I do with my feelings ba?
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should I let this win?
Or maybe I'll just let it fade away...