Calum's POV*
What is wrong with me, why did I do any of that? He didn't mean to hurt her, Mali is perfectly capable of defending herself, I'm never like this. At least I used to not be... Speaking of the devil...my sister comes inside to my house.
"Okay Calum, what is happening with you?!" she asks, mad clearly, I wish I could see a smile on her face...like I used to see every day. I know I messed up, but I don't even have a reason why, lately my wolf has been getting out of control... I've got an idea why...but it's not certain. She sits down on the couch next to me as I decide to sit up straight, avoiding her gaze. I was tired of everything, especially now knowing what's going to happen, when Mali lectured me it was like watching my mom do it, she reminds me so much of her.
"I just.... you're not like this...you used to be so different, friendly, always helping someone, proud, selfless, that's why we chose you to be our alpha, even back then" I sighed almost inaudible at the last three words. I get closer to her and hug her, not daring to say any word, afraid I might say something wrong.
"Remember when we were younger, when we thought we were alone..." she starts and I let her go, placing my hand on her's, hoping to reassure her I'm here, if she even wants me here anymore. I've heard this story way too many times, the more I do it seems like it was the easiest when I was living it.
"Remember how we started? Normal family in the werewolf world, parents and two kids happily living together..." she catches her breath, squeezing my hand tighter. I take a secret glance at her sad face, the features still reminding me of our mother, guess I looked more like dad, but I could never be as great of a man as him.
"But then they died, protecting us Calum...we were so helpless, but when I gave up, you didn't. You pulled us out from Xavier's claws. When he attacked our village, our pack, just because we didn't want to kill werecats, you guided me out of the village and we survived. We found Luke and Sarah and together we stayed untill we found one house, our pack house. Other packs helped us rebuild it, along with other houses and everything" she sighs remembering it all, I stroke her hand with my thumb gently, signaling for her to continue on. It pained me to relive it time and time again, but it helps Mali vent out and honestly, today I want to do one thing right.
"Then the other kids who were orphans came, everybody got their rank and I finally found mine. You were there, you witnessed it! I tried to help her Calum, I tried..." I notice a tear caught up in her eye, but I know better than to wipe it away, just leave her alone for now.
Somehow I manage to get up the courage to speak up "I know you did Mali, I know you did..." was all. I remove my hand from her grasp just to put it around her shoulders, bringing her closer to me.
"We chose you to become our leader, because you always were Calum. When she died you changed. You and your wolf were broken and we tried to fix you..." she gulps, I only listen, letting her head rest on my lap as she lays down on the couch on the side, neither of us daring to look at eachother.
"And when I thought we succeeded, you became aggressive. You didn't talk to us for a month for God's sake, you kept to yourself" all of a sudden she looks me straight in the eyes. At first I hesitated to glance back, but I know she needs it, it's the least I can do. I can only see sadness in her eyes, what have I done... I felt guilty, I was broken before, but I broke one person who I would do anything for. I broke my sister because of my recklessness. I was the alpha I should have coped with my emotions better, but I didn't, noone taught me how, the one thing I could never overcome. After everything we went through, I had to apologise to Willow and Michael. This was the day of her death, and if I lost someone else on this day, it's just... the pack wouldn't be able to thrive, I would be in the same position I was five months ago.
"Calum, you know you have me, I'll never leave, but please come back to me. I want my brother back, I want the old Calum back, the real you" she whispers I close my eyes, letting the words sink in.
"If you can't control it yourself, talk to someone. It doesn't have to be me, please" she cries, hugging herslef. I look down on her, kissing her forehead. That's what my sister and I ended up being, still close, yet it feels like she's miles away.
"Don't worry Mali, I'll change, I promise you" I tell her softly as we hug. She gets up and says goodnight bearly audible. I say it back as she closes the door coldly. It's my fault, all of it is, everything used to be so much better. I look around, my eyes searching for something I didn't know. This house was build four years ago, when the great alpha Zaine helped me and my friends. His pack build us a home and told me to keep them safe, I did, for the most part, but when Tayla died, I lost myself. Xavier took her life away, as well as Zaine's. He was the only alpha who could compete with him, he's the one who was like a second father to me, to everyone and he also left us. So many people died when Xavier was the main alpha, but he didn't have an heir and now noone commands all the werewolves. I groan loudly, turning on the couch. He killed all the werecats also, he hated those creatures, but they weren't that different from us, they just turned into cats instead of wolves, but what was so wrong with that? Tayla liked them, she used to say if she could, she would be one of them every day. I wanted her to be my mate, but some things aren't meant to be. Our wolves weren't compatible, even if I loved her and she did me. I tried so many times but she wasn't the one, my mark was evident on her, but it wasn't the connection you should feel when you have a mate. After her death I was still vulnerable, I was dying inside and noone could've helped me. I guess that because of me trying something that wasn't supposed to happen left a mark on my wolf, now I can bearly control him. You see, mates are for life, you can feel when one of you is hurt, you can't stay away from eachother for a long time and if one of you dies, the other one dies too, slowly and painfully by killing themselves. Yet here I was, alive, thinking about her. I should just let her go, I promised Mali I would change and I will. I mean it, I should start by apologising to Michael. He didn't deserve any of that, I should also apologise to Willow. Willow, what a beautiful name, she seems very intriguing, I admired her self-control of not turning into a wolf. She used her bow instead, her eyes didn't even glow. I've never seen that before, nobody could control themselves so well, not even Mali. I wonder where they came from...I hope that tomorrow I could fix my mistakes. Anyway, what time is it? Oh great, two in the morning, why am I not surprised. I haven't gotten proper sleep in weeks and now things are only getting harder. I'm gonna go and grab something to eat and then head to sleep.
***
There's nothing to eat....which means we have to visit the human world. Yes, besides werewolves and once werecats on this world existed humans. They lived outside the barrier, werewolves and werecats shared their territory, it was actually a whole continent hidden and unexplored by the humanity. We were connected to Australia by the power of a spell, cast by our ancestors, humans couldn't enter our world, but we could enter theirs. They had all the shops, and normal food, we had the same animals, like deer, bunnies, butterflies and everything, we weren't that different when you think about it, but our two worlds will never be one. Every month my pack would assign a few wolves to go and get everything we need, food, clothes, furniture, basically anything. How did we have enough money, well, Zaine gave me an address for anything in human world and that's how we get our supplies. I've went myself a couple of times... haven't gone in a long time tho. Oh well I think it's time for me to head to bed, it will be a long day tomorrow.
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I jumped on the roof of my house, deciding that a few more minutes wouldn't hurt.
"Goodnight Talya, wherever you are" I whisper into the starry sky.
Why is it so hard to forget you? Why is it so hard to be myself again?
An hour later of more thinking, I made a promise that I intend to keep.
"This is my last goodnight Tayla. I have to let you go, I'll never forget you and I'll always love you" the words leave my mouth, my mind not yet realising the true meaning behind them. I kept staring at the stars for a little longer before I headed to sleep, my wolf one step closer to peace.
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Flames in water
Werewolf{Calum Hood fanfiction} You were something different, the only one of your kind. Your best friend Michael was a werewolf, he was the only one who knew your secret. Once you two go on a journey you thought would be fun, you end up in a little mess...
