Two Sides Of Tova.

Twenty-two

   It felt different as I pushed the doors of the school wide open, students still littered around the hallways, those constant couples moment around the lockers, cliques and weirdos fanning all over and of course the usual nerds and dorks.

  Turning left to approach the painful stairwell leading upwards to my first class of the day, at the topmost stairs, descending down was Jack along with the popular group listed Kendra and her minions as well as Jonas and some other jocks. They were all laughing to something I didn't get but why was Jack with them and having a fun time?

He's supposed to be with me laughing his sexy laugh only to my ears alone, no one else should see his amazing smile but me.

Her hand clutched his arms in deadly grip marking her supposed territory, he's supposed to be mine!!they looked great together and my heart broke even further.

As they approached the first stairs where I stood abruptly, I took some steps back to avoid them looking at me especially Jack and Kendra.

Could what Anna said be true? What he says to me that night could it all be fake? It's he toying with me?

I guess I didn't see where I was going because next thing I knew was falling down to the ground and my bag tore open, my books spilling to the ground.

Desperately I sat up and reached out pushing whatever I could back into my bag. Behind me, I heard snickers and laughters from none other than Kendra and her minions.

"Better be careful next time, toad-er". Kendra sneered and everyone laughed at what she said, some pointing at me.

I took up my bag and without looking at anyone, I started to climb the stairs embarrassed but tripped once again after Kendra put out her leg causing me to fall.

As I tried to stand I felt his arms around my waist to steady my balance so I won't hit myself. It felt good once again to feel his hold around me. Then there was a snap bringing me back to reality, I shrugged off his hold and without looking back at him, I left.

I was so down throughout class that I couldn't even understand what the teacher was saying at all. His words just entered one ear and went out through the next.

"Are you okay?" . Anna asked while we were seated in the cafeteria during lunch.

"Yeah". I answered solemnly, my head down, my food untouched.

"Come on just take a bite, will you?". She says trying to guide a little morsel to my mouth.

"I'm not hungry". I pushed to plate away from me and laid my head on the table.

"Eat, urrgh!!"Anna groaned out loud frustratedly. "Please just a little bite and besides you've got to take your drugs".

"What does it matter anyway, I'm fine". I said giving her a fake smile and she gave me a unimpressed look.

She sighed out loud, "You know he's been looking in this direction ever since we came in".

  I lifted up brows in surprise,
"Really?". As I tried to turn to look back at him, Ara-ñat fixed my gaze back at Anna.

"Why?". I asked her.

"Don't look at him, it'll make you look like you're too easy". Anna answered nodding her head in acknowledgement.

"Ohh". I turned away and faced my plate.

Anna reached out and rubbed my arm consoling me in my time of grief,
"You're gonna be okay".

I expelled a very deep sigh and continued to play with my food.
"You know what? I'm not hungry, you can eat it". I pushed the plate towards her side.